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55-Walk With Me

Padmé's POV
"(y/n)!" I screamed as I reached over the railing and held onto her ankle. I was halfway over the railing and I was struggling. If I was one second later I wouldn't have caught her in time.

Satine was right next to me and she helped me pull myself back over the railing while gripping (y/n)'s other ankle. We both pulled with all the strength we had to pull her back over. As soon as her torso came into view I gripped onto her clothing and pulled even harder causing her to come forward and I pulled her into a hug when she was finally safe. Satine was standing to the side of us, out of breathe.

She was crying uncontrollably into my shoulder. It was worse than her first night here like she was letting out all the pain she had been holding in, "I'm so sorry." She continued to cry and I hugged her tightly, I could smell the alcohol on her and I made it a point to put the wine somewhere where she wouldn't find it.

She just tried to kill herself, I didn't think it would come to this. How can he expect me to keep it a secret when it was putting her life in danger? I wanted to tell her, I know I should but if I did decide to tell her, it definitely wouldn't be right now while she's severely intoxicated. "Don't apologize it's okay." I rubbed her back gently.

"I think I'm gonna be sick." She choked out as she pulled away from me and just as she said, she turned her head to the side and started to throw up the wine. Both Satine and I moved out of the way and I held her hair out of her face as she bent over and released the contents of her stomach onto the balcony floor.

"I'll wake up 3PO to clean this." Satine went into the kitchen where my droid slept.

She finally stopped throwing up and I helped her stand to take her to the shower. "Come on, you need to get cleaned up and I'll give you a new pair of pajamas." She didn't argue with me and let me lead her into my bathroom where I undressed her and put her in the shower.

She didn't stand, instead she immediately sat on the floor and let the water run down her. I wanted to give her privacy but after what just happened. I couldn't, I didn't trust her with herself anymore. Satine walked in and she took the vomit covered clothes and brought in a new pair, "Thank you," I told her and she nodded. She looked to (y/n) who was staring dead at a wall, emotionless.

"I'll be in the living room, I think it's best I sleep
there for night, just in case." She half-smiled before walking off to the living room. It was smart, that way if (y/n) sneaks out there again Satine will be there to watch over her.

"Hey I'm sure you're clean now, do you want to get out?" I bent down next to her, she hardly moved but the water had cleaned all the extra vomit off of her face and she didn't reek of alcohol anymore.

Her eyes slowly found mine and she nodded. I sighed, I hope she wasn't going back to her silent state. That would be a step backwards.

I grabbed the towel and wrapped it around her and helped her stand to her feet. I took her to my room with the pajamas in hand. I was about to help her put them on when she stopped me, "I can do it." She grabbed the clothes from me and went to the corner where she dressed herself.

She crawled onto the bed and got under the covers without saying anything else. I got in next to her and I knew I wasn't gonna get any sleep tonight. I was too afraid now. So I laid there and stared up at the ceiling wondering what the hell I was gonna do.

(y/n)'s POV
Throwing up took away the nauseating feeling but everything was still spinning. I laid on my side and stared at the wall and I had my eyes stay fixated on the designs. Focusing on one thing helped my head to no longer feel like it was spinning.

I hate you for leaving me behind. I knew I should have stayed on that ship with him. I knew we never should have split up. I knew it was a trap. I hated him for making me live in a galaxy without him.