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54-I'm Sorry

(y/n)'s POV
Here I was, standing inside of the Jedi gardens with the council and other Jedi from around wanting to be here to commemorate both Anakin and Obi-Wan.

There wasn't a proper funeral of course due to the lack of having their bodies but everyone had nothing but nice things to say about them.

I however haven't said a thing, I haven't spoken a word since being in that pod. I haven't cried since the night Padme took me to her apartment and her and Satine held me as I sobbed the whole night. Satine was dealing with things a lot better than I was. She cried with us once on the first night but now I'd hear her cry alone rather than around us and Padme seemed to be the rock holding everything together.

I was still in unimaginable pain. Every breathe I took felt like needles were stabbing into my throat and lungs. But I couldn't cry anymore, I didn't have any tears left to cry.

Padme and Satine were both here at the funeral, they each stood on either side of me and were holding my hands. I feel like if neither of them were here that I would have crumbled more than I already have.

"Wish to say something (y/n)?" Master Yoda turned to me after Master Plo had finished speaking.

I slowly shook my head. He nodded and turned his attention to someone else.

I looked to Padme hoping she could read my eyes. "You want to go?" She asked and I nodded to her. "Okay come on." All three of us snuck out. I couldn't be in there anymore, it was too hard for me. The memory of Anakin and I in there as he brushed my hair behind my ear to place a flower.

I stood up to face him and was about to scold him for taking the flower before he gently brushed my hair behind my ear and placed the flower there. "A beautiful flower for a beautiful girl." He smiled as his blue eyes stared into mine with a look of adoration.

A memory that used to be one of my favorites, now has become one of the most painful.

"(y/n)!" I heard the familiar voice of Lida shout from behind me just as we were about to leave the temple. I felt Padmé's grip on me tighten but I pulled myself out of it and turned to run to my friend. She pulled me into a hug, "I'm so sorry." She whispered in my ear and I squeezed her tighter. She pulled away from me and she had tears in her eyes. "Are you okay?" I shook my head and she eyed me with slight concern, "Can you speak?"

"She hasn't spoken since it happened." Satine answered for me and Lidas eyes flickered to her behind me then back to me.

"I'm here if you need me okay, you know my door is always open for you." She gently stroked my cheek, "I love you."

I put on the best smile I could allow myself to have and nodded, hoping she knew that it meant I loved her too.

"We should go." Padmè grabbed my arm and pulled me away from Lida. I thought it was rude but I didn't have the energy to protest. I followed along behind her as we made our way to her speeder.

Reys POV
Padmè pulled her away from me and it caused my blood to boil. She better not start to become a problem. I couldn't kill her even if I wanted to, Sidious forbid it. And right now I couldn't defy him, I would risk losing my own life.

Padmè's POV
It upset me to have to cut Lida off but it was Anakin's wish and after the things he told me I knew it was for the best. I trusted his judgement more than most so if he says something isn't right about her then he's most likely right.

That night he came to my apartment, he told me everything and I promised I wouldn't tell her. It was hard not to though, she was so broken. I could easily fix her but I made a promise I had to keep.