Imagines

•Spencer Reid•Special•

Authors Note: Yall im binge watching criminal minds and drafting a spencer reid book as I go along which meansss I got an ass of imagines dedicated to him to get out my system so forgive me for the following chapters lacking diversity

I dropped my bag on the couch aggressively as Spencer and I entered our home.

"Seriously what's wrong with you? JJ is going through a lot right now and what you said is really insensitive and—" he started to ramble but I couldn't handle this argument for much longer

"Spencer how many more times do you want me to explain it? Do I need to write it down because apparently your eidetic memory picks and chooses when it wants to remember the things I say" I spoke grabbing a pen and paper simply to prove a point

"How could you even say that? I remember every word we've spoken to each other going back to when I first met you 3 years ago. I'm asking what's wrong because you haven't told me you just keep dismissing the subject or giving me indirect answers which isn't helping. We're not working a case and I don't know if you realize that or not but I'm trying to have a conversation and not interrogate you—" he started angrily rambling

"SPENCER REID" I said grabbing his shoulders making him stop and look at me. I sighed reading his expression he was obviously frustrated and concerned. I took a breath and let him go taking a couple of steps away.

"I'm not blind Spencer. I know what you and JJ have but sometimes I can't help but feel like you forget we have something too" I spoke fighting back the tears, not wanting to cry right now

"How could I possibly forget what we have" he said stepping closer to me making me step back again

"Spencer since I've known you, you have always made me feel safe. I have felt safe enough with you to not feel threatened by your friendship with her, for gods sake you're the godfather of her children. I love you Spencer but the last thing I want is for you to build a life with me when really I'm a surrogate for her" I said not being able to fight the tears that fell anymore

"I-I can't believe you'd even say think something like that as if you've just forgotten about everything we've been through" he said obviously pained by my words

"How could I not when she's the only one in the world that calls you Spence" his entire expression changed and I sighed again taking a seat

I'd overheard the conversation between Gideon & Spencer long ago but I've been successful at not letting it bother me until now. Actually it was probably always bothering me but I just bottled it up like I always do.

"You know all of this sounds stupid now that I'm actually saying it out loud" I spoke wiping my face "I guess I just wanted to have something special with you Spencer...whatever just forget it" I said getting up about to go up the stairs

"No wait" he said grabbing my hand, pulling me towards him and cupping my face"It's not stupid, it's how you feel. Kasey you made me a tie when you were trying to pick up a new hobby and even though it looked bad I wore it to work anyway and I didn't care about any of the jokes Morgan made because it was special to me. When you first told me you loved me I was trying to get goo out of your hair after I'd made a miscalculation and my experiment to impress you went wrong, that was special to me because it was then I knew you'd love me through anything—the bad and the good. Our first year of Holidays and gift giving was terrible and we spent New Year's laughing at ourselves, that was special to me. Everyday I wake up to your beautiful face is special to me but if you need specific examples I'll continue...do I need to continue?" he said with a small smile

I didn't know what to say, too overwhelmed with emotion. I simply leaned into his hand, placing mine over his.

"I love you so much Kasey and I would never intentionally do anything to hurt you. JJ is a friend...she's our friend. That's all we've ever been and ever will be. Do you believe me?" he asked with those soft eyes

"If I know nothing else I know you don't lie to me...i'm really sorry Spencer" I said embracing him fully

"It's okay, i'm glad you finally got it off your chest. You should definitely apologize to JJ though"

I smiled just slightly "Don't worry I will"

This was just another special moment of ours to add onto the list, our moments and memories were what the world would never be able to take from us.