Imagines

•XXXTentacion•Best Friends w/ Benefits•

LLJ🕊

I tried to tell him it wouldn't work out, but he didn't listen. Being fuck buddies, friends with benefits, anything with "no strings attached" ends up bad. I knew before we even started all of this I was bound to catch feelings for Jah, I mean how could I not he was perfect. In the past 48 hours my life has literally gone to shit and it all started with one text message.
"Jah...I think I might be pregnant''
•••
I was pacing back and forth in my living room when Jahseh showed up. He looked as emotionally unstable as me right about now. Did we always use protection? No...was that smart? Probably not. But! There were more important matters at hand
Jahseh: Okay Z, what's going on?
Zuri: I was craving some doughnuts really really bad so I got up to go and get them and they were hot so the smell filled up my whole car right and then suddenly they made me wanna throw up and I ended up pulling over and puking up my guts. I gave a dozen donuts away today...that's not normal.
Jahseh: Anything else?
I pulled up my shirt revealing my boobs which were a lot bigger from the last time he'd seen them.
Jahseh: Whoa...did you take a test?
Zuri: No I wanted to wait for you and I'm kinda freaking out, what happened to no strings attached this is a pretty big string
Jahseh: Let's just pee on the stick first okay
I nodded and went and took the pregnancy test. I stared at the 3 sticks waiting for words to pop up and finally one did.
"PREGNANT"
Eventually Jahseh came in the bathroom and looked at them as well. I wasn't sure what to say and neither was he. Were either of us ready for a child? Hell we're not even dating he's just my best friend. By the time I came back to reality he was walking out the bathroom towards the front door.
Zuri: Where are you going?!
Jahseh: I'm leaving! How do I even know if that baby is mine?
Zuri: Seriously, you're going to be that guy! Jah who else would the dad be???
He just looked at me before getting in his car driving off. Great, just great, now I'm without a best friend and a baby daddy, could it get any worse?
•••
The next day I was trying to schedule myself a doctors appointment but my vision was too blurred from tears. So I just sat on my couch eating a tub of ice cream. Jahseh hadn't even bothered trying to talk to me, even if it had only been a day. Hell I wasn't sure if I could raise a baby with Jah but I know damn well I can't raise one without him. I sighed standing up only to feel a sharp pain in my stomach. It was so excruciating all I could do was lower myself to the ground. I felt liquid leaking out of me but I didn't have the strength to lift up my head and see what it was.
"God Help Me"
Was all I could mutter out, what felt like forever to me was probably only a couple of minutes. But surely enough came my knight in shining armor.
Jahseh: Zuri!! You here? Listen I'm sorry I was such a fucking idiot yesterday, let's just talk—oh shit. Zuri, what happened? Zuri!
I smiled as I began to lose consciousness, if I would've known I would wake up to the words
I'm sorry but you lost the baby.
I would've prayed I never woke up
••••
When Jah was dropping me back off the car ride was silent, I didn't expect to feel so empty and heartbroken because of this.
Jahseh: I'm sorry Zuri
Zuri: There was nothing we could've done, but you can't say I didn't try and warn you.
Jahseh: What?
Zuri: Being friends with benefits never works out