𝒓𝒉𝒚𝒕𝒉𝒎 ➙ 𝒔𝒉𝒂𝒘𝒏 𝒎𝒆𝒏𝒅𝒆𝒔

thirty

natatlie atkins
6:21PM
los angeles, california.

the dog cafe was probably the best time i've had with shawn this whole time, we wouldn't stop laughing but sadly it had to end, after we decided to finish our not a date, i dropped shawn off back at the studio so he could grab his car and go home, and i did the same.

making my way home, as i was driving i had decided to also blast shawn's songs, i reached a red light during "mercy", which made me think that this might be the perfect moment for an instagram story.

i wanted to show support for shawn's songs but also i know that it would make people think that me and shawn are together - something that would make juliana happy.

my free hand reached for the phone on the dashboard and i pressed on the instagram app, swiping to post a small four second video of me singing to shawn's song "mercy" and posted it, it is a really good song, i must admit.

this post was more for me to support shawn and his art because i genuinely an starting to like his music more, maybe because i'm hanging out with him more often, so i get to know him and the reasons why he makes such music.

immediately i get loads of buzzes of notifications from some fan pages that i follow that talk about me singing to mercy, which i love and i even like some when i'm at yet another red light.

sometimes, i think it's all too much and that it's all too sudden, i mean, thinking realistically, last year no one knew me, now look at me, i'm about to put out an album, i have merch and i'm going on a worldwide stadium tour, it's just so insane and sometimes i feel like i can't breathe.

however, i wouldn't trade it for the world, singing is something i love to do and it's probably the best career i could ever have, because it allows me to express myself and clear my mind to other people who probably feel the same way as me.

my phone began ringing, so i transferred the call to the car speaker, "hello?" i say, noticing that it's juliana calling me.

"natalie? are you alright to talk for a second?" she asks, i nod my head and then remember that she isn't actually in the car with me.

"uhm, yeah, what's up?" i ask.

"james corden has offered you and shawn the chance to sing senorita at a carpool karaoke session, and then have an interview together, would you be willing to go? i just thought i'd ask because of the last incide-"

"sure! it could be fun." i tell her, interrupting her rambling.

as much as she could be a bitch sometimes, shes also caring which makes no sense but i know she does what she does because all she wants is the best of me.