I cant really believe that he cheated on me, I cant sleep so I plan to wait for him. The twins are restless I don't know why. Luhluthando has been crying non stop, which is unlike him I honestly tried every trick in the book to get him to sleep, I eventually drugged him to sleep. Sikolethu is sympathetic towards his brother because the moment his brother starts crying he also cries. Okay now they are asleep. I should be sleeping but I am not going to sleep I need to speak to my husband first. I walk to the kitchen to store some of the milk I pumped. I should stop breast feeding them when they turn 2 which is in a few months. I wanted to stop when they turned one but their dad insisted I wait at least till they turn 2. I am tired of breastfeeding they bite the hell out of me then laugh about it like its funny.
"What has you smiling so hard?" That's my husbands voice, a part of me wants to jump and kiss him but another part is mad at him. I ignore him I place the milk bottles in the fridge. "MaZulu hi." That's Misokuhle. I greet him back. I walk to the bedroom. He follows me. "Nkosikazi what have I done? " He asks. I ignore him I am mad and I want him to know it. "Okay I am sorry for whatever I did." He apologizes. I ignore him I get in bed and continue to pretend as if I don't hear him. He gets in bed next to me and he takes a deep breath. "Okay lets talk about whats eating you." He says. I seat up and I am disgusted by him. "You cheated on me." I say and he looks offended by what I said.
"What are you talking about? In fact I am not interested I don't have time for this. I just got home after a tough day I expected to find a warm bed with my wife." He says snapping. "Haibo you are not going to ignore me like that." I say snapping also. "Leave me alone man." He says snapping and he walks out. Mxm he is making me angry why is he ignoring me? Luhle starts crying. Fisokuhle walks in carrying him. "Sanele did you see this?" He says walking closer to me and I see his face is swollen with reddish rashes and I recognize this, this only happens when he has eaten peanuts. He is allergic to peanuts, I should known earlier that this is peanut allergy and its deadly sh*t. "Lets take him to hospital." I say. He hands him to me. I take the emergency bag.
Miso and Zee are carrying Siko, he is crying because he is hearing Luhle cry. I rush out where did he even get peanuts? I am worried because its been 2 hours since he got hold of whatever he ate because he has been crying for close to 2 hours and I put him to sleep an ago. I sit in front with him in my hands, he doesn't stop crying. "You did not see this?" Fiso asks. I feel like is angry at me now for some weird reason. I didn't know that its something this serious it can happen to anyone right even him. I am not a negligent mother, I am not careless so why is he angry at me? I didn't do anything wrong.
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I was right he is having an allergic reaction to peanuts and I am trying figure out how he got hold of peanuts, I thought we were careful with keeping anything peanut away from him and Miso and Zenala know that our child has a severe allergy to peanuts. Fisokuhle hasn't spoken to me I guess he is still angry for earlier. I am trying to figure out how my child got hold of peanuts. I have this tendency to be absent minded when I am angry and I am afraid that I may have done something that led to this moment. I was craving peanut butter and its there in the house but I made sure I removed any peanut residues, that's when it hit me. Oh my God I did this, Sikolethu is not allergic I gave him a bite of my sandwich. Oh my God what have I done. Sikolethu shares everything with Luhle, why didn't I think? I was busy thinking about Fisokuhle cheating on me. He will never forgive me for this.
"MaZulu I know that face what's wrong?" He asks. "I know what caused the allergy." I say. He looks at me for answers. "I am sorry." I say and I start crying he doesn't move. "What did you do?" He asks. "I gave Siko a peanut butter sandwich he must have shared it with Luhle." I reply with tears falling from my eyes. He doesn't say anything he sits down instead, and stares at me. The way he is staring at me freaks me out. The doctor comes out. "You better pray my son is alright." He says but the way he says it gives me chills. "Your son is fine, I am glad you came at the time you came you did, because if not it would have been fatal. Did you know he had an allergy in peanuts?" He asks. "Yes we did." He answers. "I suggest you see an allergy doctor and find ways to treat it at such a young age and you should always have a epinephrine injector with you at all times incase it happens again." He says, that's a relief.
"We will keep him overnight for observation other than that he is fine. You can go see him." The doctor says before we can even ask. We walk in quietly and he is playing with the giraffe in his hands. "Baba." He screams when he notices us. I guess he missed his father. They start chatting and it's a funny conversation because they are speaking different languages yet they understand each other. He falls asleep. We go out of the ward and Fisokuhle still hasn't looked at me. "I am so sorry. I would never intentionally hurt our kids I am so sorry." I apologize. He looks at me not a spoken word from him. His body language tells me he is angry, he doesn't even want to talk to me. The drive home is awfully quiet. Each one of us is lost in our own thoughts. He stops the car on the side of the road.
I am confused why are we stopping? He looks at me. "You do know that I love you right?" He asks. I know he does. "Yes I know you do." I answer. "Is that why you continue to question my love and faithfulness for you?" He asks. I have no answer to that. Where is he going with this? "You don't have to answer me. I don't know whether you do these things on purpose because you know I love you. You accuse me of cheating, I made vows to you when we got married that I would never cheat on you, I promised to be faithful and I plan on being faithful to you and only you. I have never ever cheated on you ever." He says. "But... Zenalas' cousin said you and her were seeing each other a year or two ago, and during that time we were in a relationship already," I reply.
"Oh is that where you got this." He says and laughs and shakes his head. "She is right, but that was during our break you remember that break where you left me because I couldn't say I love you where you also... let me not bring it up. She is that lady I told you not to worry about and I meant it. " He says. I feel stupid right now. Why did I never think about that? Why did I jump to conclusions? Sh*t I almost killed my son because of something that never happened because of my anger and absent mind. "I am truly sorry." I apologize. "You are always apologizing you should have asked me first before accusing me. We have a lot going on right now that we should be investing our energy on not me cheating, which is something that wont happen learn to trust man mxm." He snaps. "You should stop taking advantage of my love for you. I love you but that doesn't mean take advantage of my love for you. You have baseless accusations and you almost killed my son. You make me angry. mxm" He says and his facial expression tells me he is very angry.
I don't know how to respond to this because he is right. "I am sorry. Please find it in your heart to forgive me. Please tell me what happened in Swaziland, I heard how distressed you were." I say. "Whatever you will be accusing me of something else next week." He says and starts telling me that his father stole them from their moms' family and that he never did anything for them like paying for damages . That his mom was killed by her lover a few months after they were born their dad lied about their mom dying during child birth, but the great news to all this is his moms family is ready to forgive his dad and they want him to do things according to tradition. Which makes them Majolas' not Sangwenis' and a whole lot of things that are supposed to be done by his father to apologize to their ancestors. I guess something good came out of everything that happened.
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General FictionA young lady falls in love with a young man who loves her dearly. They adore each other and they will do anything to protect each other from anything that may come between them, but what if what comes between them is them, their families both living...
