We just came from the doctor and he confirmed that Zamangwane has a conductive hearing loss it is treatable and he will have to perform surgery on her. I am so relieved that it is curable, I cant begin to think how this might have affected her. I also decided to see the doctor so now we are going to my gynae I have developed a strong dislike for gynaes' I have visited them too many times and most of the time I came back with bad news, and also the man who tried to force himself on me is a gynae so I guess my 'dislike' for gynecologists is justified.
"Mrs Sang um Sanweni?" This nurse looks around like she didn't just butcher our surname. "Sangweni." I say correcting her. I walk in with Fisokuhle holding the baby. Which reminds me we have to go and shop for the baby Fisokuhle didn't take the baby's belongings. One thing is for sure here he isn't giving the baby back to Thabile. "Mr. and Mrs Sangweni, its great seeing you again how are you?" The doctor asks. Shaking Fisokuhles' hand then he smiles at me and shakes mine. "We are doing great thank you." I reply because Fisokuhles attention is now on Zama.
"I didn't know you guys tried again, congratulations." He says congratulating us. "Thank you but she has a different mother, I am here to see if I am pregnant I have been feeling a bit off and I suspect I might be pregnant but I haven't done the home pregnancy test I figured since I am here why not just check it out." I say straight to the point. "Okay take this you know the procedure." He says. I take the cup he hands me and I do as he says. I came back and I see my husband and the doctor talking, they stop talking when they see me. He takes the cup I just handed him and he tests the urine sample and Fisokuhle squeezes my hand I wasn't even aware that he was holding my hand.
"Congratulations you are pregnant again, but to be sure I would like that you go there so we can do a Sonogram to see how far along you are. " He says. I breath out and Fisokuhle is in conflict he is stuck between happiness and worry. He looks at me then smiles and I know he is worried. "Don't worry Sangweni things will go well this time." I whisper to him and that doesn't put him at ease. Okay let us do this we will talk about this later. I lay on the bed and the doctor puts a cold gel on my tummy and places the transducer probe he then looks at the screen, as he continues moving the transducer probe around my tummy.
I already know my baby is about 10 or 12 weeks. This is exciting. I would love to have a girl. "Mrs. Sangweni you are 11 weeks pregnant congratulations. " He says. I smile at the doctor. "So everything is okay right? No complications nothing?" My husband asks. "From the looks of it everything is fine." Doctor Moremi replies. "Okay that's a relief. " Fisokuhle says and he looks at me then smiles. I wipe the gel from my tummy and I fix my clothes. We thank the doctor and we walk out of the office and my husband is miles away. We get to the car. "Sangweni are you okay? " I ask. He doesn't respond. "Fisokuhle." I say his name again and he looks at me.
"Sorry." He says then buckles Zama in the baby seat. We then both get in the door, he starts the car and Elentulo by Mthunzi starts playing I have heard this song a few times and the lyrics are great, I love Zulu love songs and hearing someone sing about love in Zulu is too beautiful and mostly relatable. "This is the most played song on my phone." Fisokuhle says. I am confused. This song is about losing someone you love someone you thought was the one. He chuckles. "Why look so confused, I was heartbroken when you left I thought you are leaving me forever. Whenever this song came on I would sing that part when he is begging for that loved one to come back. Fortunately you came back and I will make sure you need leave me again. I love you and I don't know if I will ever cope with losing you." He says.
He is making me emotional. "I love you too, which is why I left I needed to get away from you so I can deal with myself first so we will be able to deal with our problems." I say. He looks at me then back at the road. "So what's bothering you?" I ask. "I am worried about you, what happens if we lose the baby again? Will you be able to cope with that? " He asks. "I believe I am stronger now, I think I can deal with it. I will deal with it. I wont try to kill myself again and besides nothing will happen this time around and if something does happen this is the last we ever try having a baby again." I say.
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General FictionA young lady falls in love with a young man who loves her dearly. They adore each other and they will do anything to protect each other from anything that may come between them, but what if what comes between them is them, their families both living...
