Forbidden touch

~I was only falling in love~

Narcissa's pov

~I suggest listening to only by RY X on repeat!~

When I first met her, when my eyes locked with hers for the first time, I couldn't seem to get her out of my head. Whenever we were alone, all I wanted to do was kiss her, to feel her lips touching mine, her body pressed against mine. To feel the electricity between us. 

And that was foolish of me. She's dating my son and I am much older than she is. I was dumb, I was being selfish and childish; but I just couldn't help myself.

No matter how many times I would sleep with Lucius, I couldn't help but wonder what it would be like sleeping with her, hearing her soft moans of pleasure, waking up in the morning next to her.

When I would see Draco's hands on her, I wanted to take her in my arms and kiss her. I wanted to be the one to have my hands on her. But I couldn't, no matter how tempting it was.

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The night when it was just the two of us with wine and a burning fire in between us, I wanted nothing more than to sit next to her and look deep into her eyes, to study her. 

When I was in her room, the room I used to escape to, I couldn't help but see how close I could get to her without my thoughts telling me no, no matter how much my heart said yes.

The night of the Christmas ball, when I saw her walking down those stairs in that beautiful satin red dress that hugged her body perfectly, I forgot how to breathe. I couldn't help but stare at her all night.

When I watched her run out of the ball and into the garden, I followed her, not knowing why or what was going to happen. I just couldn't help myself.

That was the night I dreamed of, the night when our lips collided and it was like it was only us in the world. But then I realized that it wasn't just us in the world. It was never going to be just us. There were so many other people that could catch us, that could see us; and so I left.

I cried that night, I cried quite a bit, not knowing why. And when she told me she was falling for me, I wanted to tell her how I really felt about her, how I was falling for her as well. But I knew I couldn't and so I broke her heart instead. I witnessed how crushed she was, and it crushed me just as much to see her crumble like that. 

Then when she and Draco announced that they had broken up, I felt nothing but relief. And that night, when we got close to kissing once more in the same spot as our first kiss, all I could think about was how I could make her mine. But instead, all she wanted was to play games, to see how far she could tempt me and let me just say, it didn't take long for me to break.

The first night we spent together was a night I will never forget. I will never forget her soft moans of pleasure, how it was so hard for her to kiss me back. But I will also never forget waking up and watching her sleep, so peaceful and calming.

Then the night came where she would leave in the morning. We spent that night pleasuring each other, laughing and making jokes and even dancing to no music. I was falling in love with her, I tried not to fall so hard but without realizing it, I had already fallen and I doubt there was any way of getting back up. And when she told me she had fallen in love with me, I couldn't help but tell her the same exact thing.

Yet in the morning, when I had to say goodbye to her, I knew that what we had was just a fling. She was in her last year of school, she would meet multiple people. But I didn't expect her to come back to the manor holding Draco's hand. When I saw their hands intertwined, my heart sunk.

And yet, I was still utterly in love with her and I knew I would not be able to stop. I was only falling in love.

A/N: This is sort of a long chapter and I'm sorry but not sorry at the same time. I thought it would be good to see how Narcissa had felt since she first met Knightly to now. So please let me know what you think of this chapter!