Forbidden touch

~I don't think I could ever hate you~

I wake up to the sound of people hustling into the dorm room and the chatter of students. I open my heavy eyes and look to see that I fell asleep holding one of Narcissa's letters. I look around the room to see that the students are back and my roommate are unpacking their clothes and telling each other their crazy spring break stories about meeting cute boys at the beach or going to an island where all they did was get tan.

I sit up to stretch my arms and make my way to the bathroom. As I'm walking down the stairs in my common room, I bump into someone's hard chest.

"I'm so sorry." I look up to meet Draco's stone cold eyes and hair as bright as the snow that has finally melted from the courtyard.

"Don't worry about it." He meets my eyes but quickly looks away and makes his way up the stairs to his dorm. I sigh and continue on my way to the bathroom.

After getting ready, I meet Pansy and Luna down at the great hall to sit with Luna at the Ravenclaw table for breakfast.

"Guess who I ran into. Literally." I sit down next to Pansy with huff.

"Oh Merlin, you ran into Draco didn't you?" She looked at me with wide eyes.

"Of course I did. God he hates me so much. You could physically feel it in the air." I sigh and drop my head in my hands. Sulking.

"Yeah, I don't think that's possible." Luna spoke up, taking a sip of pumpkin juice.

"What isn't possible?" I look at her, my head full of confused thoughts.

"Well, from what I have noticed; he seems to love you a whole lot and I think it would be impossible for him to hate you. No matter how much he wants to. He loves you a lot, he's just very hurt right now." She looks at me and smiles.

I stared at her for a while until I shook my head clean and realized that I really should talk to him.

"It's also possible to feel hatred in the air but he doesn't hate you. Like I said." She smiles to herself and Pansy looks at me and shrugs but smiles back at Luna.

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As soon as I step into the library, I look for Draco. My eyes scan the room looking for his white as snow hair. Once I spot him sitting by himself at a table in the corner of the room, I make my way over to him.

"Hi." I spoke, standing by the table, not sure if I should sit.

He looks up at me, with stone cold eyes. "Hello." He looks back down at the book in front of him. "Are you just going to stand there or are you going to sit?" He doesn't take his eyes off his book.

I sit down and set my things on the table. "I think we should talk, Draco." I lay my hands on my lap and start fidgeting.

He sighs, closing his book and meets my eyes. "I think we should too." He puts his book in his backpack and gets up from the table.

"I thought we were going to talk." I look up at him, my heart beating out of my chest.

"We are going to talk, I just want to talk where nobody will hear us." He looks away and starts walking out of the library.

I grab my things and rush out of the library, following Draco.

He leads me out of the castle and near the forbidden forest.

"Draco, where are we going?" I ask, out of breath from walking so fast.

"Just follow me okay?" His voice was so quiet I almost couldn't hear him.

I continued following him, ignoring the scary and idiotic thoughts in my head.

Once Draco stops, I look up at this huge tree, I follow all the branches with my eyes until I reach the top and it's touching the sky.

"Wow, this is beautiful." I look around, there is so much green and blue and brown and it's all so beautiful. "When I think of the forbidden forest, I think of spiders and darkness. I would've never thought of this."

"Yeah." Is all he says. He sets his stuff against the tree and sits under it. I join him, sitting beside him; Close enough to feel his warmth but far enough so our legs don't touch or our feet don't accidentally hit each other.

"I'm sorry Draco. Sorry for everything really. I did love you, I still do. It's just I love Narcissa as well. And I know that's weird because she's your mom and all but..." Draco stops me by grabbing my hand and holding it in his.

"I know. I talked with my mom and I've been doing a lot of thinking. I do truly love you, and I always will. But, I know that the love you and my mother have for each other is stronger than our love." He meets my eyes but I look away as a tear falls down my cheek. "I don't hate you Knightly, I don't think I could ever hate you. You're just too bloody lovable. And I hate you for that." He chuckles. "Look at me." He grabs my chin and makes my eyes meet his.

My eyes filled with tears, I look at him and smile.

"I want you to be happy Knightly, whether that's with my or my mother. And if it is with my mother, just know I will never hate you. But I will also never stop loving you." A tear falls down my cheek and Draco takes his thumb and wipes away the stray tear.

He looks me in my eyes and kisses me softly for just a couple seconds until he pulls away.

"I think you should talk to my mom. Whether through a letter or in person, I think she would appreciate it."

"I love you Draco." I look at him and smile, squeezing his hand.