Forbidden touch

Just Friends

I woke up to see that I fell asleep on the couch. The pillow is damp and has mascara stains on it from me crying all night until I cried myself to sleep. I sit up slowly realizing that my head is pounding and I feel sick to my stomach. I get up fast and run to my bathroom where I throw up.

I lay my head on the toilet and tears start falling out of my eyes.

"We can't Knightly." I can't help but relive last night. Her words stuck in my head on repeat, making my heart shatter over and over again.

Eventually, I get up and go to the shower where I sit underneath the hot water, still wearing my clothes and continue crying.

Then, came a knock on my bathroom door.

"Knightly?" a silky voice appears from the doorway where Pansy soon appears. She looks at me and her eyes fill with worry "Knightly! Bloody hell, come here." She walks over to the shower and turns the hot water off.

I look at her, my face stained with tears and my arms are now red from the hot water falling onto me.

"Knightly what's going on?" She sits on the edge of the tub where I am in and holds my hand. "You can tell me, I won't judge you know I wont."

I wipe my nose with the back of my hand and look at her. "I made a mistake. A very big mistake." Tears begin to fill my eyes once more.

"What happened?" She is filled with worry, I can feel it as she rubs my hand.

"I- I fell for someone I shouldn't have fallen for." and soon, the tears that were approaching my eyelids soon fell like a waterfall.

"May I ask who?"

I look at her and hesitate; scared of what she's going to do, if she's going to tell Draco. But, she's my best friend and I trust her, "Narcissa."

Silence. Her eyes are on me and I start to cry harder. I let go of her hand and wrap my arms around my legs and shudder.

"Come here." She leans towards me and holds me. I cry harder into her arms, she doesn't say anything, she just holds me and runs her hands through my damp hair. "I promise I won't tell anybody okay? I'm here for you, you have nothing to worry about."
But, I have everything to worry about.

I cried in Pansy's arms for what felt like forever. Eventually, she let go of me and as I looked up at her, I felt safe.

"Come on, let's get you cleaned up okay?" I shake my head yes and she helps take my clothes off since I can hardly move myself.

When she takes my shirt off, she looks me up and down but does not say a word, she then helps take off the rest of my clothing until I am completely naked.

"Well," She clears her throat, trying hard not to look at me "I'm going to leave you be, so you can take a bath okay? I'll only be-"

But I cut her off "Wait, can you please stay with me?" I look at her with wide eyes, hoping she will say yes which she does.

She sits on the floor by the bath and plays with the rug underneath her, not making eye contact with me.

"Can you um, help me wash my hair?" I ask after washing my body in silence.

"Yeah." She says, making her way towards me. She gets the shampoo and rubs it through my scalp.

"Thank you." I thank Pansy as I stand up and wrap a towel around my body while Pansy keeps her eyes fixed on her shirt.

She turns around to face my back as I look at my exhausted self in the mirror with bags under my eyes and skin that is now 2 shades paler.