lioness // phan

Chapter 1 ~ Addictions

*Hello Internet! I hope you enjoy my very rubbish fan fiction about Dan & Phil

I know its a short chapter and its quite crappy i'm sorry *

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Okay I must admit, life sucked. My dad was addicted to alcohol and i was addicted to two boys on the internet that didn't even know that i existed. So why was i so fond of staying alive just for them?
My mum passed away last year and my dad began to drink most nights to get rid of the heartbreak and come home with lots of women. I never understood why he did it, if he loved mum so much, then why did he have to replace her with other women?

He didn't even know i was home most of the time and he hardly took notice of me unless he was angry. So then i would be the only thing on his mind. I know it sounded like the cliche emo child's life; as people would say at my school. but it was honestly what I had to deal with. (No offence to emo's! I love emo's!)

I actually wish i had an emo friend. I love emos. They're so cool. They wear awesome clothes and have brightly colored hair, not to mention their scene swoopy fringes that cover their forehead. (I would love to have a fringe because I have a huge forehead!) But then, goths are dark and strange. Mostly black haired people that also wear black clothes. Almost Dan Howell. If he had black hair that is.

* THIS IS ONLY ME TALKING STEREOTYPICALLY BECAUSE I KNOW NOT ALL EMOS AND GOTHS ARE LIKE THAT *

I watched Dan and Phil to take my mind off my father. I had bruises and cuts over me but i didn't care because i thought i had a chance of being free when i watched them. Nothing else mattered when I heard the soothing voice of Phil Lester and Dan Howell.

Just the sound of Dan and Phil's voice was enough to calm me down.

I know it sounded so stupid but it was true, i was completely obsessed over the two boys on my laptop screen. Although, I'm sure I'm not the only one!

I only had one friend, his name is George. He calls me his Lioness because my name is Leona. Strange right? We weren't dating or anything, but if he had a chance he'd sneak in a joke about us being a couple. He had no idea about what happened at home, he didn't know my dad was completely off his head. All he saw was my smile, and i couldn't tell him it was fake in case he ran away from me. I couldn't risk losing him, he was the only person I had.

I couldn't bare to lose anyone at a time like this. I had no one as it is. Everyone at school picked on me for the clothes i wore, the way i looked, and even acted. I was an outcast, a laughing stock. I couldn't begin to explain to you the words I've been called, there's too many.

The only thing i could count on was my laptop. And i swore, that if my dad ever broke that then my life would be over. I wouldn't be able to cope because the only thing that got me through was Dan and Phil and watching them on my phone is not as HD as i'd want it to be. I was in a phandom where we shipped Dan and Phil as a couple. Some people shipped them as best friends, but i could see through the heart eyes Howell that there was something more. I could see they felt so much for each other, and that gave me shivers inside.

Thinking that they lived 30 minutes away from me, that i could run to their house and wait for them. But that would be creepy... right? Wow im weird. Imagine me - a low life complete stranger meeting Dan & Phil. I mean, that is my dream but knowing my dad if I told him I was going out to meet my favorite youtubers, he'd call me crazy and crush my dreams entirely.

My mother on the other hand, would've told me to go for it. Heck - she probably would've drove me down to their house and helped me find them. She would understand. She was like me. My mother was addicted to loads of things. Some good, some... bad. I missed my mum like crazy. She was always there for me when something had happened.

I felt a tear slip from my cheek.

No. Leona you can't just decide to cry now. Not when you couldn't even cry at the funeral until you stood up on the podium to say your poem. That's not fair on her!

I thought about starting a Blog. A Tumblr one. Dan Howell was obsessed with Tumblr, so why couldn't I be too? I opened my laptop and created an account.

Username: LionessLeona
Password: ******
Age: 17

I set up a text, and I began to type.

Hi, i'm Leona.

I'm 17 years of age. My birthday is on the 10th of December. I love the winter so much. I think that the snow is beautiful. I love youtube, including Dan and Phil (OF COURSE) who doesn't love them? I also like anime. At the moment, i am watching sword art online. Its pretty great so far. Asuna is beautiful. I'd love to cosplay as her one day. I also enjoy bands. Mostly punk and rock. My favorite bands are We The Kings, Secondhand Serenade, All Time Low, AS IT IS, Boys Like Girls, Muse and so many more. I've only ever been to one concert. I went to see All Time Low at Brixton Academy in London. Yeah i know; Brixton is a hell hole. But it was way worth it!

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BY THE WAY DAN AND PHIL ARE THEIR AGE NOW IN THIS FIC INCASE YOURE CONFUSED

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Thanks!

- Holleh c: