lioness // phan

Chapter 9 ~ Crash

*I'm writing this chapter with complete honesty. I know how it feels to have a car crash because ive experienced one before.*

"STOP!!"

i began to panic. My heart was beating fast. Phil heard me scream and he lost control of the wheel. He panicked the same as me because he thought i was hurt. All of a sudden, the car began to swivel round in circles like we were trying to avoid a deer in the road. Phil smacked his head on the front window, and i screamed out as i saw his head begin to bleed.

Time stopped, the car turned round and round until it ended up in the grass and we drove into a tree. I burst into tears and my hands were shaking. I began to have a panic attack and i was unable to calm down. The front of the car was messed up. The window was completely smashed and there was glass everywhere, including myself.

Did i hurt Phil!?

Luckily, there were no other cars on the road so we didn't hurt anyone but ourselves. My head smashed against the front seat cushion and everything happened so fast. Dan grabbed me as fast as he could and held me to his chest tightly whispering to me once the car had stopped;

"Its okay, i'm here don't cry," he stroked my hair and kept shushing me.

i kept repeating the same words over and over.

"Phil... Phil is he okay.. Is Phil okay?!" i whispered through tears.

I knew that i did't want to speak, but this was one of the worst scenarios i could imagine so i had to. At least i can forget it happened tomorrow and go back to being mute. Hopefully, i wont have to face something like this and have to show them my true feelings when i break down. Oh god... stop crying! Stop being such an idiot. This is your fault you shouldn't be crying you should be taking yourself down to the police station you terrible person.

Dan let go of me once i was calm and laid my head down on the seats. He got up and opened the front door only to have Phil fall sideways into Dan's body. His head was bleeding and he had glass all over him. He was limp and lifeless. He was unconscious.

"PHIL!!!" I got out of the car in an instant and grabbed his body falling down onto the floor with him laying in my lap. I held him so tight and cried into his bleeding body.

"I'm so sorry Phil this is all my fault i'm so sorry. Now we have to return to the hospital and its the other way round and this is all my fault i'm sorry i'm sorry," i repeated everything, my words were jumbled and i couldn't get the right sentence out.

I stared at Phil's unconscious body and cried harder. Dan was waiting by the car talking to an ambulance on the phone.

After 15 minutes, Phil opened his eyes slightly and i gasped.

"Phil i'm here its okay you're alive i promise you're gonna be okay soon just hang in there," I said desperately wanting him to be okay.

This is all my fault. I cant believe how much trouble I've caused and its hardly even been a few hours.

The ambulance arrived 30 minutes later, the siren going mad and they hopped out with a stretcher. They took Phil from my hands and i cried reaching up to him. Dan came over and lifted me up holding me close to his chest.

"Hes going to be alright i promise Lea," Dan said taking my hand in his and climbing on to the ambulance.

The nurse sat me down in the corner and helped me calm down. She bandaged up the cuts i had from the glass and she spoke to me to keep me sane. All i wanted was to know was that Phil was okay. He needed to be okay.

After about 10 minutes of driving we arrived at the hospital and Phil was rushed into a emergency room. We sat outside in the waiting room for almost an hour until the doctor told us he was awake and was aloud visitors.