lioness // phan

Chapter 21 ~ Then It All Fell Apart Again...

*I watched Phil's You now and had to screen shot so hey shoutout to whoever LaurenDM is maybe we could do the #FINDLAURENDM thing lmfao.

Don't kill me for this horrible chapter I'm very sorry*

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Leona's POV
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Everything was going according to plan. My life was slowly slipping back into place. Everything seemed to be okay, Rosie was smiling, and that's all that mattered for me. Her happiness was my happiness.

But usually when something great happens, it's all too good to be true. And then you question and worry about the next thing that's going to come tumbling down onto you.

Depressions a bitch. Yes, I admit it is. It sucks. You feel so down even when everything is okay. You feel so alone when you're in a room full of people. You feel left out in a crowd of friends. You try and say that you're okay, tell yourself that you're pretty or handsome every time you wake up but you can't believe it no matter how hard you try.

I speak from experience. Because, well I'm biologically depressed. Rosie is bipolar, I have anxiety, she has paranoia. We're both walking zombies.

So yeah, life was great.

But was it really?

I got out of bed that morning, Dan had forced Rosie to stay on the mattress at the other side of my room. And before I could protest and ask her to come and cuddle me, she was fallen asleep. I couldn't resist waking up her beautiful face. I would feel so bad about it afterwords, even though it killed me to sleep alone.

I had become so attached to Rosie that without her I felt so alone.

I picked up my phone, that I hadn't used for over a month, and saw thousands of notifications on it.

I opened it up, ignoring the social media ones. I would deal with that later.

Instead, I bought up me and Georges convocation.

I'm home! I typed.

I put my phone in my pj pocked and climbed over Rosie's still passed out body. I opened the door slowly and dragged my feet down the stairs, coming face to face with Phil.

"Morning" he said, smiling.

"Why are you up?" Dan asked Phil as he magically appeared from behind me.

"Well it is 10am." He replied.

"You don't usually wake up until 1pm," he giggled and poked Phil's bare stomach.

"Neither do you," he said, sticking his tongue out.

Was it really 10pm?

That was the latest I'd ever woken up. Which is strange, since I woke up having a nightmare. I woke up lots of times through the night, feeling empty and lost without Rosie but fell asleep after half an hour.

I didn't feel hungry, so I sat myself down on the sofa and leant my head back.

All I could hear was bickering. They were going at it again, shouting in a whisper at each other.

"I want to take Leona out today!" Phil whispered.

"Why can't I? I wanna spend some quality time with my Lea!" He protested.

I didn't understand why I couldn't just hang out with both of them at the same time. It wasn't normal that they were arguing again. And it makes me feel sick that it's over me.

"Well considering I have a nickname for her, I think I mean more to her than you!" Dan said.

They were trying to be discrete but I obviously could still hear them.