lioness // phan

Chapter 19 ~ Stay For Tonight?

*this is a cute phan chapter so whayyheeyyy youre welcome I'm going to do a mix of Phil's POV and Dan's POV awe I'm so nice to y'all*

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PHILS POV
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i wanted to make Dan feel better. I wanted him to cheer up. Ever since Leona left, the house has felt extremely empty. Dan's been in his room moping, and every night when i returned to my bed; i felt like something was missing. I wanted him to come and sleep with me, and we could share a bedroom.

I wanted him close to me, i wanted to cuddle him like it was our last hug, kiss him like i was never going to be able to kiss him again.

Touch him like....

I switched out of my trance when i realized i had poured my cereal everywhere, after it had over flowed out of the bowl.

I shook my head, sighing.

It was currently 3 am, and i was roaming the kitchen stealing Dan's cereal and unable to sleep. I hadn't been able to sleep since Leona committed suicide. I was so worried about her, i just wanted her to feel okay again. I wanted to make her problems disappear but i knew i couldn't.

I was also worried about Dan, worried i was making him feel depressed. I was worried i was being a bother, worried i wasn't helping him. But mostly, i was terrified that he was going to slip back into bad habits and not tell me about it.

He seemed to sad all the time, he would barely talk. I had no idea what to do, i tried to confront him but he put on a fake smile and refused to speak to me.

This meant that, i wanted to make sure he knew how much i loved him. I wanted him to have a day with me, a happy day. I wanted to see hes beautiful smile. I wanted to kiss his luscious lips. I just wanted him to be close to me.

Anything, just please; don't let him slip away from me.

As i trod up the stairs, holding my cereal, i stopped outside his closed door and debated on whether i should go in. But in the end, i slipped down to the floor and leaned my head against the wall beside the door. I curled up in the corner and munched on my cereal.

I heard faint cries from his room, which set me off. I bawled on the floor, feeling sick to my stomach that i had done this to him. I wanted to grab him in my arms and promise him that everything was going to be okay, but its not okay.

Its fucking messed up.

I sat there for a while, just listening to him. I couldn't help but let out small whimpers. Great, my cereal has gone all soft in the milk. I trekked downstairs and threw the cereal in the bin, not bothering to be quiet.

I heard a door open, and feet shuffling around upstairs. I heard the creak of the stairs, but no one appeared.

I walked round to the banister and looked at the stairs. I saw Dan sat with his head against the wall, half asleep. His eyes were red and puffy, he seemed like he had been crying for hours on end. I felt so bad for him.

I climbed up the stairs and sat beside him, putting my hand on his thigh.

"Whats wrong love?" I asked him, trying not to force him to speak.

"Nothing," He replied slowly.

I shook my head and pulled him onto my lap. I hugged him tightly and felt his head snuggle into my neck.

I kissed his forehead.

"You don't have to talk to me if you don't want to, but please... Stay for tonight?" I whispered into his ear.