Love Hate and revenge

To Wait No More

I sat for a further 10 minutes, the door opened and Hugh and Stan came back in. Hugh knew it was feeding time and I liked to do it myself when I'm here rather than use the pre bottled breast milk I make up when I'm not here plus to feel his skin against mine is incredible to think how far his little body has gone. I smile at Hugh and Stan letting them know I'm ok, just as I stand up the waiting room door opens again it's the Dr.

"Hello there."

"Hi Dr are the test results here already?"

"Not yet, I have pushed them along so they will be here before 2 I will meet you back here at 2pm so that should give you enough time to feed baby ok."

"Oh thank you Dr."

"Your welcome see you all then."

With that he left, I had mixed emotions, happy because the results were coming but also worried because he might not be a match.

"I'm going to go feed Jake, once I'm done I will meet you back in here for the results ok."

"Ok baby I'm going to get coffee and also ring the office to make sure everything is ok there."

"Ok darling"

I left the room and walked down the corridor to jakes room, he was sleeping peacefully, Jake was a good boy never cried at all really even though he is dealing with so much. I walked closer to the incubator and stroked his precious face,

"You are beautiful Jake and I'm so proud of you for being my little fighter and I will tell you this every day of your life but I need you to keep fighting for your mammy ok because you can never leave me ever, I want you to grow into a handsome young man ok."

Just at that moment Jake opened his eyes it was like he heard what I said making me smile as I picked him up, it was great being able to hold him close, change his nappies even the dirty one made me over the moon and I think that's because I know our time is precious.

After feeding Jake and made sure he was dry before giving him a kiss and putting him back in his crib, I know it was time for the results so I headed back to the waiting room, my phone binged reminding me I needed to put it on silent, I took it out my pocket I had one message,

Hi Alex a congratulations is in order I will see you soon! Xxx

I didn't know the number and they didn't leave a name so I just deleted the message as u didn't have time right now. I went into the waiting room where Hugh and Stan were waiting they looked as anxious as I felt, this has to be a match I don't think I can cope if it's not!

"Did you get coffee darling?"

"Yes I also rang the office everything is fine there all I have to do is sign a few documents when I leave here."

"Ok darling."

I sat down next to Hugh and grabbed his hand he kissed my knuckles making me feel warm in the pit of my stomach it was so frustrating waiting for results to determine whether your baby lives or dies it like a source of torment building you up the crashing to the point of despair.

The Dr walked in and took a seat, I felt sick he didn't look pleased something told me this was bad,

"What's wrong? He's not a match is he?"

Hugh slumped his head in disappointment.

"No Stan is a match Alex."

I couldn't believe my ears he was a Mach this was great but wait why is he not happy,

"But?"

"The thing is we don't think Stan will cope under anaesthetic for that long, he suffers from angina."

"So you can't use him?"

"Look we will be going through with it that is my grandson."

"Thanks Stan but no."

"Baby look, we will have the best surgeons in the world here if we have too nothing will happen I need our son to be ok!"

"I do too."

"Well then that's a done deal I trust that I will wake after this ordeal and maybe even get my chance to hold my grandson."

"Stan I am grateful for this if there is anything I can do for you I will be there so thank you I owe you my life."

"Alex he is my grandson."

"Ok then we will go ahead Dr."

"Ok well we will do it 2 days from now so if you would like to come this way Stan there is papers to sign."

"Yes Dr."

Stan stood up and so did I, wrapping my arms around him I hugged him it felt strange but nice this man was going to risk his life for my son I will make sure he knows I'm totally grateful.