Roman one-shots

Maybe we'll be okay • angst

Tw: Sucidie attempt,break up mention,Mildly described sucide, U!light sides, mostly Logan, hints of a toxic relationship

Ships: Past toxic Logan x Roman, Hints of Roceit

Roman always knew he would fall in love way too easily being Thomas's Creativity,hopes,dreams,and romance side it was hard not to. Which is why it wasn't a surprise to him to fall in love with almost every side evening some that he dare not speak of.
Although the crushes didn't last more than a month his twin was always supportive of him evening with the dirty jokes,he could still tell he cared a lot for him and Roman didn't want that to change. That's the reason why he didn't tell Remus about his crush on Logan, who on terrible spin of events was Remus's boyfriend.
To make matters worse they were happy too on Roman's part.

Remus talked about Logan non stop,along with the details of the rather sexual moments of their realtionship,but apparently things were not as great as they made it sound when they broke up a year later,and as much as Roman hated it he felt relief over it.

   Unfortunately the relief didn't last long when he caught Remus trying to tie a rope around his neck. No one speaks of that day anymore,it was quickly nicknamed 'The day that must not be spoken of'. Until Logan asked Roman out on a date.

  He so badly wanted to say yes,but instead he went right to Remus. Who reassured him with lovely words he so badly wanted to believe. To this day Roman can recall every sentence,every beautiful word,that felt so intoxicatingly slipping out of the older twin's mouth.

  "It's okay. Please say yes,Don't deny yourself happiness because you don't think I'm over him. I can proudly tell you I am over him." Roman hung on to every word,every "It's okay," and although deep down Roman knew it wasn't okay, His poor brother couldn't evening dare to say Logan's name, that's all the proof anybody needed to see Remus wasn't okay.
Roman's stupid,He knows it too, Logan tells him that everyday, but he was evening stupider under love. Especially with how deep in love he was with Logan. 

Maybe that's why the words slipped out of his mouth so carefully, delicately dare they say. Now that he thinks about it maybe that's why the next day he found Remus deathly pale hanging from the rope that held a tight grip on his broken and bruised neck. Scratch marks over his neck, meaning he most likely struggled.
Roman tried to convince himself it wasn't his fault he wouldn't know that Remus would have done something as awful as that. Logan told him otherwise, everyone told him otherwise.

The walls would yell at him. It was his fault. If he was a good brother then Remus would have been here. Logan tells him it's fault because "You made me love you." Virgil tells him it's fault because "If you were actually there for him this wouldn't have happened." Patton tells him it's fault because "If you would've been half the prince you claim to be, you would have seen this coming."

Janus tells him it's his fault because "It's not your fault Roman." He opens his eyes to see Janus sitting by him. "No, you're wrong, it is, if I-" Roman gets cut off by Janus, "If what? If you would have not listened to Remus? If you would have not said yes?"

He nodded slowly, scared of what Janus may say. "You could've never seen that coming. It was nobody fault, not even yours or Remus's." Roman frowned, "But the others say that your liar, which by default would mean that it is my fault."

Janus grabs Roman's face, "I don't care what the other says. It's not your fault. We can cuddle and watch disney movies, but only if you tell me it's not your fault." Disney and cuddles is all it took to convince Roman.

He sniffled as Janus wiped off the tears off of his face, "It's not my fault." Both of them smiled and got up. Turning on disney they cuddled until Roman fell asleep. Things aren't perfect but they're fine for now.