My Not So Perfect Mate (boyxboy)

Chapter 21 Part I

11 Months Later....

Almost a year has passed since I turned eighteen and took over as the Alpha of this pack. In the last year, I experienced a lot of things including the beauty and cruelty of each passing season but all from the confines of my lonely office.

Yes, you guessed it right, I am still nowhere near finding my mate, my one and only, my greatest gift from the moon goddess herself and you know what now it has started to feel more like a punishment, an uncertain burden which makes you hope, which makes you giddy, which makes you dream of your life ahead in the arms of your beloved, all to be shattered in the blink of an eye each time you look into the eyes of the wrong person hoping and praying that they are the one.

This is exactly what happened to me when I had made that visit to Alise's pack. My wolf and I were so sure of the fact that we had found our mate that it shocked us to the core when we looked into her eyes and simply felt nothing, no sparks, no feeling of the insurmountable love all the wolves talk about so much. I just felt nothing.

The more shocking part was that her scent still drove us to believe that she was indeed our mate but that was it, there were no other signs that even remotely led me to consider the possibility that she could be our mate.

It made my wolf crazy to the extent that I almost transformed right then and there. My wolf became so confused and out of control that I had to use all my willpower and restrain and had to leave Alise's packhouse in extreme urgency to distance myself from her and give my wolf a break.

While visiting Alise, I was accompanied by Jake who knew everything about my little hunch of Alise being my mate.

We had gone to the Silver Valley pack under the pretence that we wanted to visit Alise, someone who had played such a vital and heroic role in the rescue mission.

It had taken me almost a week after the war before I could finally visit her, I would have liked it to be sooner but alas, dealing with all the remanents and taking care of the injured and affected people took more time than I anticipated. So, after one week I was there standing at the borders of Silver Valley Pack filled with anticipation and excitement of the highest degree, so ready to meet my mate.

I was happy by the thought of Alise being my mate as she was a great lady full of strength, kindness and other things I found attractive in a woman. She had put her life on the line to protect Ramsey, what more do I need to know to appreciate the fact that I was a lucky lucky man.

I caught a faint sniff of the similar scent that has made a comfy home for itself in my mind driving both my wolf and me crazy at all times. The nights have been rough and that's all that I am going to say.

I had hoped to also cross path with Sam while I was in Silver Valley to set some records straight, make him very much aware of the fact that Alise was my mate and I would appreciate it if he could respect that and try to maintain a respectable amount of distance.

Don't take it the wrong way, I am not a caveman harbouring ancient belief of my mate being my possession, I won't even call myself the jealous type, someone who is irrationally possessive or controlling but I don't know why every time I think of Sam and Alise together, being all lovey-dovey, it just sends a wave of bitter jealously flowing in my system.

It feels like someone is stabbing my heart with needles and let me tell you its not a good feeling so I wanted to talk to Sam and try to explain to him, my predicament involving my overly jealous and possessive wolf which I do hope eases with time as I am quite sure Alise is not someone who would appreciate giving up her friendship just to accommodate my unreasonable wolf.

Maybe it was her well-known crush on Sam that was making my wolf crazy possessive towards his mate.

But all these thoughts had left my head when I was about to enter Alise's office. All that remained was the nervous anticipation and so much excitement of having found my mate.