A Better Life-Divergent FanFic

Chapter 8: Training Stage 2

Tobias POV

We begin by calling the initiates in one by one. Today is the first day of their fear landscape training. This is the part of initiation that shows us just how brave they really are.

"Lex," I call "you're up first c'mon."

She slowly stands up and makes her way to the door that I am holding open. Inside Tris is setting everything up for the simulation.

"Both of you are gonna be in here?" Lex asks as I shut the fire behind her.

"Well Tris will be running the simulation but since it's her first year doing it I'm here to supervise...make sure she doesn't screw anything up." I say.

"Hey I won't screw ita up!" She playfully shoving me.

"Oh take a seat." I say. Lex then goes and sits in the chair.

"So...," Lex starts, "what's the simulation?"

"I'm going to inject you with a serum that targets the part of your brain that processes fear. It will then display one of your worst fears and you will have to go through it. In order to get out you have to slow your heart rate and your breathing and deal with what is in front of you. Most people have 10-15 fears, but you will only have to go through one each time."

"...ok" Lex says, a little shakily.

"You ready?" Tris asks holding the needle. Lex nods.
Tris injects the serum into her neck.

"The serum will go into effect in less than a minute."
Tris explains, "be brave." She adds just as Lex succumbs to the serum.

Lex POV

I open my eyes and stand in a room filled with people. Most are people I know, my friends, my family, my teachers. There are some I do not know though. I realize I am standing in the middle of the room and people are staring...staring at me. I scan the room, my face covered in confusion.

People then start whispering to each other, or laughing, or pointing at me. Some people have disappointed faces on them and are shaking their heads at me. What is happening?? This feels almost unreal...unreal! That's exactly what this is!

This isn't real I say to myself. Suddenly the room gets darker and the people standing around the room become larger, and they don't look like people anymore. They look more like...monsters. Their eyes are large and their faces surround me everywhere I turn, laughing at me, pointing, whispering...judging.

My heart starts beating faster and faster as the darkness and their faces engulf me. I have to get out. I have to get out. I keep saying to myself. My breathing is fast and heavy. I squeeze my eyes shut.
When I open my eyes they will be gone. I tell myself, not as a reassurance but as a command.

I open my eyes and awake with a jolt, nearly falling out of the chair I'm sitting in.

"It's ok it's over." Four says putting a hand on my shoulder as I sit back in the chair. "You alright?" He asks as he puts his hand back in his pocket.

"I...I think so." I say gasping for air, out of breath. Beside me Tris is typing something into the computer, a concerned almost worried look spread across her face.

"Is something wrong?" I ask her. She presses a button and steps away from the computer.

"Lex, how long do you think you were in the sim?" She asks me. The sim, I almost forgot it was a sim, but somehow managed to remember it was one while I was in it.

"I dunno...15 minutes?" I reply

She looks at Four for a moment, then back at me. "You were in there for 5 minutes. Which is much faster than the average." Tris informs me.

"Lex," Four says sitting down on a stool next to me, "When you were in the simulation were you...aware it wasn't real?" I look at him and say nothing. They're onto me. They know I'm different.

"I mean...sure I guess, doesn't everyone?" I say back quietly.

"No...they don't." Tris says. She pauses momentarily, "What were your aptitude test results Lex?"

Tori's words bounce around my head. You can't tell anyone you're Divergent, no one. You can't trust anyone. My results were Abnegation, Candor and l Dauntless. I can't lie, hence the Candor result.

"Um Abnegation." I say looking down. Technically I'm not lying. I did get a partial Abnegation result.

"No I don't think it is." Tris says, "it's okay Lex you can trust us."

"Now how am I supposed to now that?" I ask looking up at them.

"Because," Four starts lowering his voice, "we're Divergent too." Shocked by his response I ponder this for a moment.

"Fine," I say, "my results were Abnegation, Candor and Dauntless. They were inconclusive."

"Thank you for telling us." Tris says

"We'll help you...keep it hidden I mean." Four says, "Tris and I will teach you how to keep it hidden in your fear landscapes, how to look normal. You can't tell anyone though. The only people who can know are Tris and I okay?" I nod.

"We'll take care of the fear landscape footage. You just go join everyone else for now." Four says reassuring me.

"Thank you." I say as I get up and walk away. I am Divergent, and now I must learn to control it.

Tris POV

Once we finish the fear simulations for the day I am exhausted.
"Wanna go back to your place?" Tobias asks.

"Yah." I say yawning.

We get to my apartment and Tobias closes the door. We sit in the couch and cuddle. I look at at him, his eyes full of want. I kiss him softly on the lips. He pulls away. "I love you Tris." He says.

"I love you too I reply." He kisses me more passionately this time. My arm curls around his back his arms wraps around my waste. I lean back a little and he is practically on top of me. I can feel his hand tugging at my shirt. He starts to pull my shirt up. Fear immediately surges through me. I pull away from our loving kiss.

"Tobias-" I start. He looks down at us and at where his hand is. He immediately pulls it away and sits up. He cups my head with his hand.

"Tris I'm so sorry. I must've gotten carried away."

"It's okay, I did too." I add.

"Why don't we get ready for bed?" He says. I nod. We get up. I go to take a shower and put my pajamas on. When I step out of the bathroom Tobias is sitting in bed with his shirt off looking as handsome as ever.

"Hey beautiful." He says smiling. I blush. I crawl in bed with him and rest my head on his chest, taking comfort in him as I slowly fall asleep.

Hey guys! I hope you liked this chapter! I have some ideas for the next few chapters that I'm really excited for!