Last chance

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Becky
One year quickly turned into 2 and a half, Sasha and I we never meant to stay away for so long. We thought after a year we'd be ready to come back, I'd be ready to come back but that day never seemed to come. Everyday I just had more problems to face, more demons chasing me, more nightmares about what I'd lost...I just simply wasn't ready. But now 2 and a half years later, being twenty with a six year old daughter it just felt right to go back now.

Me and Sasha haven't wasted these years, no we've been training...training non-stop. We both needed that goal, an escape from the rest of the world and we both soon discovered that wrestling was that escape for the both of us, just living in the ring and taking each day as it came. We're going back now because we're ready, leaving my house in Wales will be difficult but it's time to go home.

"Do you reckon much will have changed?" Sasha inquired from across the room, as I sealed the final box of our stuff. "No, not much. I hope things haven't changed too much, maybe my old neighbourhood could do with a refurb." Sasha laughed but I could see in her face there was something she wanted to ask me. "Your mother, have you heard from her?" I shook my head, turning to face Sasha. "Not a word, you'd think after the whole speech she gave me, she'd want to be in my life. But nothing, she didn't even tell me about my little brother being born. I found that out from my old dealer Alex, he said he saw her at one of his girlfriends mothering classes." Sasha frowned at me as I just lifted the last box, moving it towards the front door. "I'm sorry, maybe you could reconnect with her once we get back." I scoffed, looking away from Sasha. "I don't want to reconnect, she's had her chances and she's wasted them. I'm gonna go and wake Millie, so could you take this box outside?" Sasha hesitantly nodded her head as I ran upstairs to Millies room.

"Good morning sleepyhead." I shook her lightly and she yawned, trying to wrestle the sleeping bag back over her. "We've got a big day today, we're going home." Millie doesn't remember much, she was practically a baby when we were there. "We're going to see Daddy?" She sat upright, a big grin appearing on her face. "Daddy?" She nodded, titling her head to the side when I didn't understand what she was talking about. "You know, Seth." She said with sass and I just let out a sigh. "Princess, I don't know if we'll be moving back there. It's been a long time since me and Seth were together? I was thinking we'd move in with Auntie Sasha." She shook her head. "But I miss Daddy!"

"I know you do, I miss him too but honey please just come on and get in the car."

"Fine. But this conversation is not over!" She stood up off the floor, leaving me to roll her sleeping bag up alone. I know she misses him and I miss him too, but Seth he's probably moved on with some nice Uni girl. He has no place in his life for a broken girl like me anymore. I grabbed her sleeping bag and I walked down to the car, locking up this house for now. I'm not selling because I might need this one day, maybe bring Seth here if he hasn't moved on.

"Come on Becks, America is a far way away from Wales! So let's get this show on the road." I climbed into the passenger seat as Sasha started the car. "You ready?" Sasha looked over at me as I started to nervously bounce my knee. "I've never been more ready, come on lets go home."

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The car journey was exhausting, it took many days and I would be lying if I said I enjoyed that road trip, but I think anyone would be. We just finished the last leg and now we're sitting in Sasha's car, outside Seth's house. "Go on, I'm tired. Just go and if he doesn't want to see you, then he doesn't want to see you." Sasha spoke bossily from aside me, leaning against the driving wheel. "Okay...but if this goes bad then its on you." I jumped out of the car and I walked up to the door, knocking rapidly three times before shoving my hands into the pocket of my jeans.

"Hello- oh my god. Rebecca I didn't think you'd ever come back..." Seth's shocked mother opened the door, checking me over with her eyes as I stood awkwardly in the doorframe. "Is Seth here?" I just managed to choke out, before mentally cursing myself. "He's in his room, he hasn't come out since he got back from uni last night." Her voice became low as tears started to build in her eyes. "I need to see him." She shook her head. "Honey I really don't think~" I cut her off by stepping into the house. "Please it's been too long." She just nodded and I ran upstairs.

I walked right up to the door, the light was off and the hallway was silent. I rocked nervously on my heels as I went to knock his door, just tapping the hardwood softly with my knuckles. "Please just go away..." I went against his wishes as I pushed the door open, letting the light pour into the pitch black room. "I'm sorry but I just can't do that." Soon a figure emerged from under all the blankets...Seth. "You're back..."  He stood up from bed and it felt like I was talking to a completely different person, his body language was more timid and his voice was weak...he was vulnerable.

"I am and I promise I'm never going to leave again." He looked up at me and his eyes looked broken, everything about the old Seth was diminished, like when I left I took that part of him with me. "I'm sorry Seth, I'm so sorry..." He bit his lip, clicking the light on. I could see how skinny he was becoming, how crushed he looked. "You're here now and that's all that matters." I finally moved from my spot by the door and I just ran towards him, crashing our lips together, I expected him to push me off but he didn't he just melted into my touch, wrapping his own arms around my waist. "Welcome home Becky..."