Last chance

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6 years later...
Becky
I paced the hall's of MetLife Stadium, my whole body trembling as I tried to regain control of my mind and my breathing. An urge for drugs appeared in my mind, like a flame on a match that would just keep spreading unless someone put it out.

I scratched nervously at my arms, trying to think of what my therapist told me last time I saw her. I could hear Seth's music ringing through the arena and it felt like the walls were closing in, normally when I get like this I run to Seth and he puts out the flame growing in my mind.

I'm so nervous, I haven't been this nervous since I auditioned for NXT, I almost ran back to the drugs then but Seth stopped me, I stopped myself.

- Flashback to NXT auditions -
"Finally Becky Lynch you're paired with Sasha Banks, please step up into the ring and show everyone here what you ladies can do!" My leg's felt like jelly as I stood up, trying to mask my nervousness in a confident smile as I stepped between the ropes. I waited for the bell to ring, nervously glancing back at Seth who was nodding and smiling at me.

*Ring ring*

I just froze, Sasha ran at me and I didn't know what to do. She punched me directly in the face and I just fell to the mat, humiliation flooding my veins as I looked at the crowd of people laughing at me. There it was, the little devil on my shoulder just telling me to give up and go back to being a junkie. I almost rolled out of the ring but Seth caught my vision, an encouraging smile on his face and he mouthed to me 'you can do it, knock em dead.' I pushed off the ground, nodding to the trainer I was okay before the bell rung again.

Sasha ran at me again but this time I was ready, dodging before pulling Sasha into a corner neck-breaker. The crowd stopped laughing and started to cheer us, that's when Sasha and I really fell into our element, pulling out all the stops in this match to earn the opportunity of a lifetime. We were nearing the end of our five minutes when Sasha put me into a cross face she likes to call the 'bank-statement' but I reversed pinning her for the three count.

The referee held my hand tall and I helped Sasha off the ground, pulling her into a hug as soon as she was on her feet. "We killed that." She whispered and I nodded, running over to the ropes and over to where Seth was sitting. "Told you that you could do it, want some water?" The producer cut us off, stepping into the ring with a clipboard, practically stopping everybody's heart.

"Thank you so much for coming today everybody and now remember, just because we didn't pick you this time doesn't mean we won't pick you next time. Now if I say your name, welcome to the WWE! But if I don't, get back home and keep working your ass off." I grabbed Seth's hand, awkwardly taking my seat alongside him as the producer started to read the names off the list. "Alexa Bliss, Nia Jax, Dolph Ziggler, Seth Rollins, Sasha Banks, Buddy Murphy and Becky Lynch." As the people who weren't called out started to leave, I turned to Seth and Sasha pulling them both into a tight hug with wide eyes, not entirely believing that we'd done it. "We made it!"

"Yes we did."

- End of Flashback -

I tried to focus on anything but the wildfire, the desire of drugs, or my match. I'm going to be one of the first women to ever main event Wrestlemania, if Wrestlemania alone wasn't enough pressure adding the first women's main event to it is crushing me. Everyone is expecting so much and I just don't think I can do it, I'll be forgotten about just like I was at Wrestlemania 32. The other girls got figurines to celebrate our match, but me...well I just had to tap out and watch somebody else hold the gold.

My blurred mind didn't even notice Sasha running up the corridor until she placed her arm on my shoulder, causing me to jump. "Hey, its just me. What's the matter?" She noticed my panicked state and I tried to tell her what was going on but no understandable words were coming from my mouth. "It's alright, I'm here now okay? I know I'm not Seth, but I am here..." She grabbed my arm and she pulled me into her embrace, I relaxed instantly when her arms wrapped around me. "I'm sorry, I just don't know if I can do this." My emotions were high, I was feeling everything and I just couldn't hold it back. "Yes you can, you can do this." I sobbed into Sasha's shoulder, thankful that I hadn't had my makeup done yet. "I'm not strong enough."