Last chance

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Becky
I laid, restless. I desperately hoped for something to take my mind off the pain I'm going through. The hospital is awfully quiet at night, the only noise is the beep of my machine. I feel sick, I've got a headache, I'm fucking freezing and there's absolutely nothing I can do about it because if I leave here, I die and I can't do that. Seth needs me, I need me...if I die all the good things in my life are over and I don't want that. Not at all.

I reach across the bed and I pick up my phone for what feels like the thousandth time, it doesn't surprise me when I don't see any new notifications. It is half 4 in the morning. A voice breaks out in the silence, one I instantly recognise. "Visiting hours are over ma'am." The nurse tried to keep her voice low, but it didn't work. "Yeah, I know but my friend needs me. Plus I'll let you have a slice if you let this slip." Charlotte. Oh how I've missed her. "Fine, I'll be in for my slice soon." Suddenly Charlotte walked through my hospital door, holding a pizza box with a big smile on her face. She pushed the door shut behind her and came and joined me on the bed. I switched the light on and she passed me the pizza box.

"I know it's early, but I couldn't sleep and I saw you were online on insta so I thought might as well come over and keep you company, it feels like forever since we caught up." She bit into a slice of meat feast and dropped half of the toppings on my bed. "Yeah, everything's going on but I really want to get better then I can come back to school, graduate and go on to do something incredible. I'm assuming Seth hasn't told you about Millie?" She shook her head, but inquired me to tell her. "I've got a daughter, called Millie. She's staying with Seth while I get better and anyway anything~"

"Woah woah woah, slow down. You have a daughter?"
"Yeah, Right firecracker she is. I only just got her back from my...Uh I mean her dad. Please don't me mad, I didn't think I had a daughter anymore either."
"No, I'm not mad. Just a little shocked, if you want I can fill the others in soon?"
"Yeah sure, it's understandable why you're shocked. Now please tell me there's some drama in school, because I need a little lighthearted drama."
"Well basically, Seth was talking to us the other day about Josh telling us how you said that he wanted to fuck Seth. Basically Josh propositioned Seth in the bathroom and fuck me, we all almost died laughing. When Seth obviously rejected him you should've seen the look on his face! Ooh and you know Tracy, the blonde dipsy one well she's pregnant, with Tucky's the lumberjack looking one's child. And Ambrose and Sasha both got suspended for a week for fighting Riott and Andrade...once you're outta here it's going to be so great to have you back. I've really missed you in history."

The smile on her face, pulled me out of the darkness. Reinstalling the fact that I can do this. "Christ I really have missed a lot, at least I've got something to look forward when I finally get back. Speaking of history, I need you to just give me your book. I think maybe keeping myself busy, will be better than just sitting in this damn room all day." She teared her eyes from the pizza slice in her hand, to make eye contact with me. "Of course, I'll send you everything and I'll sort Seth out and get him to send you Chemistry." I grabbed a slice out of the box, holding the greasy pizza in my hand. "Thank you, you're a star. Now tell me, how are you and Roman going?"

She immediately blushed, using the pizza to hide her face from me. "We've been going really good, Seth keeps pushing him and like, it's hard to explain. I just want him to ask me out, I've spent long nights thinking about him. I just want to be his girlfriend, like you're Seth's." I blushed this time and she grinned mischievously. "Now, remember to leave a slice for that nurse or I won't be able to come bother you at 4 in the morning." She pointed to the box that now somehow only had one slice left in it. "I was thinking about things and I mean really thinking about things and Char, I think I want to be a wrestler. Using my body for good, keeping it in good condition, keeping myself healthy. I think it would be fun, what do you think?"

"Sick, then you can kick our asses even more. Seriously though, sounds good. Maybe we'll have to dust down my dad's old wrestling ring and start using it, we'll probably we shit but it'll be some fun." She had the biggest smile on her face and I felt happy, happy that I actually might start to have my life together. I'm saying this now but I could wake up feeling like I'm on deaths door, but for now I'm just going to soak up the moment. I can do this, I need to keep telling myself that because maybe, hopefully I'll start believing it.