𝙘𝙧𝙪𝙚𝙡 𝙬𝙤𝙧𝙡𝙙 // 𝙩𝙤𝙩𝙖𝙡 𝙙𝙧𝙖𝙢𝙖 𝙝𝙞𝙜𝙝𝙨𝙘𝙝𝙤𝙤𝙡

one.

courtney

it was the start to senior year. i was on my way driving in my black car as i had just got my liscence.

my heart was leaping out of my chest.

usually, i wouldn't be so apprehensive however the summer changed my outlook. well, actually, someone changed it.

duncan, changed it.

if you knew me you would think "but isn't duncan the love of your life?" and usually i would agree and reply with "of course!" but now it's different.

he did it to himself. with the help of gwen.

i didn't understand. what went wrong? all i did was be a great girlfriend!

i helped him bring up his grade, i always set aside time to spend time with him, i wasn't clingy, spent time with his family, all i ever did was worry about him.

so much wasted time.

but then the worst possible thing happened.

i'll begin from the top.

it was a simple afternoon and duncan and i were enjoying each other's company on his bed.

i noticed he was falling asleep with me on his stomach. i wasn't that tired so I got out my phone and went on instagram.

liked a couple photos, accepted a few followers, replied to some comments. after this liking, accepting and commenting frenzy i heard a ding come from my DMs.

it was a pretty boy named justin. he had already hit on me a few times but i always politely turned him down.

after all, i am a very loyal person.

...

justinsexygorgeous:
so, courtney, seen any movies recently?

courtneysatella:
yeah i've seen quite a few in my lifetime

justinsexygorgeous
wanna see one with me tonight, maybe?

courtneysatella
sorry no thanks. have a good day though!

justinsexygorgeous:
you'll be back 😏

...

i resumed with my endless scroll. what I didn't know was duncan had heard that ding too. he must've watched the conversation and somehow got the wrong idea in his head.

"why were you texting Justin?" duncan asked.

"oh please, it was barely a conversation" i replied.

"he's a selfish jerk and you cant hang out with him" he said selfishly.

this angered me.

how dare he say who i can and can't hang out with.

"what the hell duncan! i can hang out with whoever i want!" i got off his broad chest and stood up.

he sat up with his back against his wooden headboard.

"just don't hang out with him, alright princess. you're not talking to him anymore.". thinking he made a point, duncan lied back down and almost shut his eyes.

"excuse me? what part of that chat looked like me having any interest in him?"

"you tell me!"

"jealous asshole" i muttered bitterly beneath my breath after some silence.

"i am a lot of things but i'm definitely not jealous courtney"

"maybe not, but you're fucking insecure!" i spat.

he opened his mouth to speak, but i cut him off. "MAYBE IF YOU STOPPED FOCUSING ON YOURSELF AND MORE ON YOUR LOYAL GIRLFREND, WHO BY THE WAY TURNED HIM DOWN, YOU WOULD ACTUALLY NOTICE THAT IM NOT INTERESTED IN ANYONE BUT YOU!" my voice was trembling but it didn't matter.

i was so confused.

why on earth would i cheat on him? deep down i wanted to let it slide and move on.

but i had enough.

when had he ever actually paid attention to me?

"you're just a slut who hangs out with any pretty boy who looked her way" he said.

i knew he was losing interest in me. it was obvious. although i hated him in the heat of the argument, this scared me.

"LOOK WHOS TALKING! WHY WON'T YOU JUST GO SLEEP WITH GWEN? IS THAT THE ANSWER TO ALL YOUR PROBLEMS? INSTEAD OF TALKING TO PEOPLE WHO CARE ABOUT YOU? MAYBE SORT OUT YOUR INSECURITIES AND HAVE FAITH IN PEOPLE WHO LOVE YOU"

i put him in a corner. however, i was the one who felt defeated.

my vision turned blurry as tears formed in my eyes.

"YOU KNOW WHAT COURTNEY? MAYBE I WILL SLEEP WITH GWEN SEE HOW YOU LIKE IT!"

"FINE GO HANG OUT WITH THAT HOME WRECKER FOR ALL I CARE!" i spat back. i always needed to have the final word.

"FINE"

"GOODBYE DUNCAN!"

i slammed his door and left.

a/n *wipes sweat*