𝙘𝙧𝙪𝙚𝙡 𝙬𝙤𝙧𝙡𝙙 // 𝙩𝙤𝙩𝙖𝙡 𝙙𝙧𝙖𝙢𝙖 𝙝𝙞𝙜𝙝𝙨𝙘𝙝𝙤𝙤𝙡

thirty six.

heather.

"fuck"
"ass"
"go to hell"
"shit! shit! shit!"
these were the only words that my mouth executed.
after many violent cusses, the baby finally left my body.
my body still felt heavy. as if it was my fault for early labour.
i sat up, bouncing myself from the bed.
"is it crying?"
the doctors turned their backs to me, shielding me from the thing i just pushed out.
i heard whispers and desperate suggestions.
alejandro looked at the floor, knowing something was wrong.
i screamed from the aches of my body. not only physical pain, but emotional pain. which was so much more awful. i was a wreck. my hair stuck to my face with sweat and i hadn't slept in hours.

the hopeless screams soon turned into a cry, then a faint whisper. i was so disappointed in myslef. not only for getting pregnant in the first place, but possibly letting it die at birth. they called alejandro over, they told him somethings to assure me obviously. he wouldn't know what to say, he was nineteen after all.

suddenly, a little voice grew loud. it was the best little voice i ever heard. the nurse beamed as she said allowed "it's crying!"
i flopped my head onto my soft pillow in relief.
she handed me the baby, he was beautiful.
i cried in happiness, i had done it. my mother rested a hand on her chest as alejandro brought her in for a hug.

i giggled while tears streamed down my red cheeks. it was all worth it.
the kind nurse laid him in my arms after giving him a good cleanse.

he was soft and his skin felt like cream.
the little man was small, the size of my hand.
his head was big compared to his tiny torso.
he was the most perfect thing in the world.
i knew that whoever i choose for this kid would adore him unconditionally.

it pained me that i would only be able to view him grow up from the side lines, but i was grateful at the same time because i knew the rest of my life was waiting patiently for me.

they left me and alejandro alone with him for around forty minutes. he placed a soft kiss on my forehead which i appreciated. the back of my mind hoped that we would work out.

soon, i allowed courtney, bridgette , geoff and Duncan to come in. alejandro placed the boy into Bridgette's arms as geoff observed him from her shoulder.
"what do you think geoff?" alejandro asked.
"looks like ham" he responded.

courtney hit him upside the head as Duncan cackled.
"so who are you giving him to?" she wondered.
"we have an agency, all we have to do is pick a couple or a person. basically, a file of application.
we smiled, knowing this was the right decision.

a/n this was short sorry
happy easter ya'll