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Just a heads up for you all! I have never personally struggled with any kind of eating disorder nor has anyone close to me either. Ive Made sure to do lots of research on them and recovering from them before writing this book but I don't know how accurate I will be portraying the feeling of having an eating disorder!

!!!! If you have ever or are dealing with one currently or any kind of mental health disorder feel free to message me if you need someone !!!!

Keni sat up in her bed, her eyes glued to the movie playing on the TV. Her sister had put it on before she left for the night. Only one person was allowed to stay over night with her and she wanted it to be Spencer.
She didn't want to make her sister feel bad or unneeded because Keni definitely needed her sister, but she felt more safe with Spencer there.
The door opened and she immediately knew who it was, she could smell his cologne as he sat on her bed.
"I brought you some toast with butter from the cafeteria." He set the plate gently in her lap.
Her eyes flicked from the movie to the plate to Spencer. Even though she wanted to get better and she wanted to be healthy and live a normal life she was scared of food.
"You deserve to eat Keni." His soft voice sent shivers through her whole body.
"What if I get sick while trying to eat.." she looked up at him for reassurance as she spoke. She wanted validation from him, she wanted to know for a fact that she deserved to eat this toast.
"It's all part of the recovery. You haven't eaten in so long the first few times you eat you probably will feel sick and disgusted after. I'll be here the whole time remember that. You have me, and your sister here to support you."
She looked down at the plate in her lap as the tears built up in her eyes. She had never heard anyone reassure her that they would be by her side through it all. The butterflies flew around in her stomach as his hand came up to gently wipe away the fallen tears from her eyes.
"Go on, at least take four bites for me mkay?" He moved his hand from her face to her free hand and held it gently. He had never dealt with any eating disorder before but he knew from studies how much it affected the brain.
Spencer watched as the girl finally picked up the piece of plain toast and take a small bite out of it. She scrunched her face up in disgust but continued to chew the food.
"There you go! Perfect! Three more bites then you can put it down if you'd like."
She felt sick, she felt like she was going to pass out but Spencer's soft reassurances and encouragement made her want to keep eating. She took another small bite and looked to the boy for approval.
He smiled at her and nodded, gently squeezing her hand. He knew how big of a moment this was for her and he was going to make sure she would get the encouragement she never did before.
She took two more bites before setting the plate on the table next to her. She wanted to at least finish half of the bread for him but she physically couldn't bring herself to take another. She was exhausted and felt sick to her stomach.
"Hey, you did amazing. I'm very proud of you, and your sister will be too when she hears you ate something." Kenis head fell softly against Spencer's shoulder, usually she wouldn't be so bold but she felt so sick and tired that she couldn't help it.
Spencer adjusted how he sat so that way she would be more comfortable resting against him. He could tell she was in need for a lot of rest and he was prepared to lay there all night if it meant she would get proper rest.
"Spencer were all leaving now.." JJs sweet voice rang through the hospital room. "Hotch told me to come let you know before I head out." Spencer smiled and gently nodded his head. "Goodnight JJ." She left the room making sure to quietly shut the door behind her.
Spencer carefully grabbed the TV remote once he was sure Keni had finally fallen asleep and clicked it off. He laid his head back against the pillows and slowly drifted off to sleep himself.