Love Notes

13- Apologies Galore

Michelle did take a few days as her aunt suggested. She had to go to God for help with it. She spent the three days in prayer and calling places in New Orleans to set up plans for Beyoncé. She also sought a therapist who could see her right away. There were so many things she had to do in Charlotte and she talked to the kids. Somewhere along the way the kids had taken to calling Beyoncé Mommy and Michelle Momma. Michelle had a long talk with the kids where she explained to the kids that she made a huge mistake and hurt their Mommy. The kids' reaction was not what Michelle expected she thought they would be mad at her, they weren't. Brielle and Kaleb just wanted to see their mommies back together again.They had even volunteered to help Michelle with her plan. Brielle had even roped Ms. Jackson into it. Michelle was currently on the phone with Brielle.

It was all God how their relationships with the kids blossomed. Each had different reactions and little things that they liked about each other. The kids knew that Beyoncé and Michelle loved each other and would do anything to see them happy together. The couple was miserable being apart and everyone noticed it. They were made for each other.

"Brielle, I really want to apologize again. I didn't mean what I did to your Mommy. Please forgive me."

"Momma it's okay. I forgive and she will too. So you're flying in tomorrow and she doesn't know?"

"She has no idea. Make sure my son keeps it that way. I won't see her until the day after though."

"Got it Momma. I'll make sure Kaleb doesn't open his mouth and tomorrow I'll share Mommy's apartment location when we go hang out with her."

"I'll come see you and Kaleb tomorrow evening. Love you lil bit. Tell Kaleb I love him too."

Michelle was hoping that all went well with her trip. She had opened up to Pastor Jones about what happened and he sent her to a therapist that she would definitely be seeing. She had to fix herself and get her woman back too. She knew that there were some inner issues she never dealt with that she projected onto Beyoncé. Beyoncé didn't deserve that. Michelle needed to be better with her communication skills and she needed to get over her fear of being hurt. She wanted to freely love because her heart lay with Beyoncé. Weeks later she felt so bad and was truly regretting letting her inner demons push her one true love away. Her aunt always said God has a way of making you confront your demons head on. One thing Michelle knew is that if it hadn't happened now it would have happened later and the outcome probably would have been worse.

Michelle sat in the airport waiting for her flight to start boarding. To those around her she probably looked as if she was watching the planes come and go out the window, she was really praying that Beyoncé forgave her. All she knew was that she needed Beyoncé just as much as Beyoncé needed her. They were each other's mate determined by God. As soon as she finished praying her plane began to board. The entire flight she just thought about how wrong she had been. She had been to see her therapist and he recommended that every time she felt like this she should write it down. So she'd started doing it daily whenever she felt she was about to beat herself up about the whole situation. Everyday she found herself writing in it. She wrote Beyoncé a letter the first day after her therapy session and she prayed that Beyoncé would see fit to forgive her. She knew that it also might not be immediate either.

She quickly grabbed her carry-on and exited the plane making her way to the rental car section. Michelle got her rental car and headed to the hotel. She checked in, went to her room and took a shower. Then made sure that all her plans for the next days were in place. After she took a nap and woke up in the early evening, she checked her phone. Brielle had sent her the location of Beyoncé's apartment and said that they would be back at the home by 5:30 which was right before dinner. Ms. Jackson had invited Michelle to dinner with them but she declined. Michelle took a walk to the restaurant they went to on their first trip in New Orleans and she swore she saw Beyoncé leave and head in the opposite direction as she turned the corner to go in. Maybe her mind was just playing with her because she wanted to see Beyoncé so bad. She ordered her food to go and went back to her room to eat. While she ate she went over the plan in her mind Brielle was an important factor in it. Beyoncé had blocked her on everything and she couldn't blame her so Brielle was the middle man so to speak. Michelle slept peacefully that night, something she hadn't done in almost a month. That peaceful sleep was God letting Michelle know that everything would be alright.