Love Notes

20- Surprises

Beyoncé got out of the car quickly seeming angry, she didn't even open the car door for Michelle. Michelle wondered if she was still angry about the whole Amour situation. Michelle moved slowly out of the car and into the house she greeted her mother and the kids, looking for her fiance. She made her way to the game room where she found Beyoncé throwing the basketball from the Hoop It Up game so hard. Her whole stance and demeanor radiating anger but Michelle wasn't sure what the anger was about. Beyoncé had been calm throughout this whole process but now she was letting her anger fly. Michelle observed her as she kept throwing the ball until she got tired. She didn't even notice that Michelle was in the room with her. She sat down and blew out a breath. Michelle continued to stay in the doorway watching her fiance break down and it was hurting her to watch. Slowly Michelle made her way into the room and sat down next to Beyoncé pulling her into her chest.

"Baby calm down. Talk to me, get it all out."

"I just don't know TT."

"It's okay baby, take your time. Process it and talk it out with me."

"I'm angry at myself for not being there to protect. That's my job babe. I'm supposed to keep you safe."

"BB, you couldn't have known what she was going to do. Please don't blame yourself. There was literally nothing you could have done baby."

"I'm sorry babe."

"Don't apologize baby. You did nothing wrong."

"I can't help but to feel angry at myself."

Beyoncé got quiet retreating into her thoughts and thinking about the person she saw at the police station. She pondered if it could be the person she thought it was. Someone she hadn't seen in years but desperately wanted to. Michelle just continued to hold her rubbing her back as she listened to her breathing. Beyoncé nestled her head into Michelle's neck more. She kissed it but not in a sexual way, more of a reassuring that Michelle was still there. The couple sat quietly for a while just holding on to each other. Beyoncé took a deep breath and exhaled it.

"TT, while we were at the police station I think I saw my sister."

"Really? When?"

"When we were leaving and we were walking to the car. I looked up and looked into her eyes. Eyes that reflected sadness like mine. I helped you into the car, looked up again and she was gone. I don't know where she went."

"What do you want to do baby?"

"I just don't know babe. I don't know. Like I could go back to the police station but what if that wasn't her. I'm scared to know."

"BB, whatever you decide I am here with you every step of the way."

"Thank you for that."

"Baby I'll do anything for you. Beyoncé I love you."

"I love you too Tenitra."

The couple decided to stay in the game room and watch a movie. They needed to spend this time together as a couple. Their thoughts keeping them company. Michelle reflecting on the situation with Amour. It scared her to know that Amour was so unbound and had hurt her. It was messing with Michelle's sense of normality. When she thought that she was finally healing and able to make true connections with Beyoncé and the kids. Her communication skills had improved so much and she didn't want to relapse into the shell of a person she used to be. Beyoncé was deep in her thoughts about both Michelle's situation and her feelings about Solange. If the person she saw was Solange she had so many questions. The main question that she wanted answered was why? There is always a why and Beyoncé needed to know. Was the person she saw actually her sister or was it just a coincidence that she looked so much like Solange.