I will always love you <3

𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝟒

Natalie's POV:

I kept checking my phone, even though I had promised myself that I wouldn't, hoping that Crockett would have messaged me. I know he's an incredible guy, but has his bad sides. I just hope I didn't upset him too much, with Harper and all. But, to be honest, I secretly had hoped that he would have reacted differently because I actually really want to keep the baby. I knew how hard it was to raise a child alone, but I guess I was ready to face the challenge again, although I really wished that the next time I would have a child, I wouldn't have to raise it alone.

A few days later:

I haven't seen or spoken to Crockett in days, and I have the feeling that he's been avoiding me, since I told him the news. I walk up to Maggie "Hey, have you seen Crockett today? I seem to constantly miss him. He's always going in and out of patient rooms or surgeries. I think he's avoiding me..." I ask. Maggie shakes her head disappointed "No, no I haven't. I'm guessing you told him? I nod you want me to page him?" she asks. "No, that's alright Mags, thanks" I say, as I see him (to my luck) pacing in the break room. I quickly walk over to the break room, just as Crockett sees me, and he opens the door to (again) walk away. I stop him "Hey, I really need to talk to you" I say firmly, as I gently push him back into the break room. He sighs, in a slightly annoyed way, which already enrages me. I look at him, hoping he'll say something, anything. But he just looks at me, even though in his eyes he looks frightened. "Ok, please, Crockett, say something, but don't just ignore me for days, and act as if I don't exist!" I say angrily. He tries to bring out some words for a second, "You know, I don't know what you want me to say!" he replies, "I mean, you just blurted it out, right before we were supposed to have dinner! You could have notified me when you already had the assumption, so I could have at least been a little prepared!" He yells. I looked at him with a shocked face, and on the inside I was deeply hurt, as my eyes started to fill up with tears. "You know, I genuinely believed that you were someone different behind that wall, that you've put up, but I guess I was wrong." I said to him, as I stormed out. Maggie tried to comfort me, but I ignored her. I walked to the elevator and ended up on the roof.

Once I felt the cool Chicago breeze, some of my anger and sadness flowed away. I walked over to the railing, and sighed deeply. As I looked over the Chicago skyline, I felt a hand touching my back, and to my surprise, it was Will. "Hey, I saw you storming out of the ED, everything alright?" he asked me. I sighed and looked at Will "yeah, uhm- we- there has just come some news to light, which came as quite the shock." I say. Will looks at me worried, "It's noting, really, it's actually personal, so no worries" I tell Will. He looks at me and sighs, but then hugs me. A hug I really felt like I needed. We stand there for a while, both looking over the city.