AGLOW [L.T]

13

I passed the corner of a white house and finally slowed down. I had no intention of going to the bathroom, I just had to get out of there.

I was uncomfortable after that. They got into a fight about me knowing, and it ended up with us getting stuck in the high air.

The worst part about that is what Harry said about me not knowing what they actually do. That they would end up in jail if anyone found out. Now I know it actually is something more than just keeping guns. I don't know what but I do know it's worse than I hoped for.

I did not want to spend the rest of the day with them, I rather make up a lie saying I became sick and left.

I googled the way back to the hotel, seems like I have a 30 minute walk ahead of me. It was not too cold outside, and the sun was shining. I will just have to try to focus on my surroundings instead of worrying. The pit in my stomach don't have to grow any bigger.

I take a deep breath as I start walking. I take my phone out of my pocket and start to write a text to Sophie to let her know i'm leaving.

Hey, felt a bit sick, heading back to the hotel

Oh okay... we could've given you a ride?

It's fine, think some fresh air might be good

I put the phone back into my pocket and keep walking. I try my best to think about something else.

Maybe I should call Alicia or Hanna? I haven't really talked to them since I was in Spain. They haven't really tried to talk to me either though. They might think I'm busy or something.

I miss being home in Manchester. The only thing I have to focus on when I'm home is my school work and myself. Right now I'm constantly around people, and even if I'm in my hotel room I know there's people in every room around me. Usually it's just the crew, but I don't really know them either.

I hang out with Sophie, but I don't know that much about her. We have fun when we hang out, but somehow the other boys always end up being around. The only time I was really alone with her was when we went to San Siro.

She really felt like she enjoyed my company that day. Usually when I went along with Hanna and Alicia to things I always felt like a burden because of my shyness. They talked to people all the time, they went to parties and made out with boy after boy.

I was always way too shy to talk to anyone, they were annoyed by that.

Sophie did not seem to mind, even though we never really were in that many social interactions. She encourages me to be more outgoing and confident while we're out. I never thought anyone would be able to make me sing in a microphone on a stage, even if the Arena was empty.

She even makes parties seem fun, she dances with me, drinks with me, she doesn't leave me for any guys. I used to hate parties because I would end up in a corner sipping a drink while waiting to go home. I love hanging with Sophie but...

I miss home.

I miss the secure, comfortable feeling of being home.

When I walk into the lobby my cheeks are slightly red from the cold. I wasn't freezing out, my face just seem to go red very easily. I smile at the receptionist as I walk through the door and head to the stairs.

I have a lot to do, I should probably get on with them today so I don't have to stress later. I really don't need the stress right now. I don't want to risk waking up out in the corridor next. Me waking up in my window is enough.

I walk through the big hallway. Every time I walk here I'm amazed by how incredibly beautiful it is. Sophie was right when she said you feel like the wife of someone rich. I don't remember the career she said he would have...