AGLOW [L.T]

37

After the text I got last night I hurried back to the hotel. I kept looking behind my shoulder and around every corner. It threw me off after everything else that has happened. No one other than the boys know about the blood in the room. Someone else knowing is serious. 

I got back to my hotel and before closing the door I was fastidious with checking every corner of the room. I was so on edge after all of this. 

I slipped in a pool of blood, Louis kissed me and now he is not talking to me and acts like it never happened, Sophie knows something happened and I was a total bitch to her about it. Now this. Adding to that I am barely getting any sleep. Nothing is really working out for me right now.

Last night wasn't any better. I rarely got to sleep, I tried, but I could not for my life get my eyes to stay closed. I was in bed just looking out the window or up at the ceiling. I closed my eye and felt myself drifting for about thirty minutes before I thought I heard something by the door. I walked up, checked the lock, the chain, looked out the peephole but saw nothing. I went back to bed, started drifting and it was the same story for about five more times before I gave up. 

I even tried to sleep on the bus but I was uncomfortable in the bunk. I chose to go on our bus this time, thinking I might sleep better if they aren't distracting me, but no. 

Now I'm standing here at the venue, my phone clutched in hand thinking about showing the guys the text. They told me not to tell anyone, and they are always really strict with no one finding out. They need to know if someone actually knows about it. 

The thought has crossed my mind though, that it might be one of the boys messing with me. The number was blocked and I can't think of anyone who would want to send ME the text. I am not in on anything, I just happened to be around for it. It could just be one of their tactics to scare me, or maybe they want to know if I would tell them. 

I look at my phone, unlock it and look at the text again. I read it over, trying to decide if I'm actually going to show them. 

A hand is put on my shoulder and I immediately lock the phone and turn around. Sophie's blue eyes looks at me with furrowed brows. She lifts her hand as if she had been intruding. I haven't talked to her since yesterday but it was on my to do list of the day. 

"Wow..." she says, looking down at my phone I was quick to turn off. "Sorry... didn't know it was personal."

"No it's fine" I shake my head "I was going to talk to you..." 

"Well, I'm here" she shrugs. Silently took a deep breath. 

"I just wanted to apologize for yesterday, I had a really bad day and I didn't wanna talk about it" I say as apologizing as I can. 

"It's okay, you were tired and I pushed it" she shakes it off. "I was just worried because you seemed so upset about your conversation."

"He told me not to tell anyone what it's about... that's why I couldn't tell you" I lie. It's not a full lie though, since there is a lot that I can't talk about, and if Louis was willing to talk about it with me I am sure he would tell me not to tell anyone. 

"Okay, I understand... but what's your reason for standing outside their door right now?" she asks. 

"Same reason, I have to talk to Louis about something, but I'll do it later I think he is in a bad mood." I shrug, trying to play it off as smooth as I can. Sophie just nods before stepping aside me and opens the door to walk in. 

It's not actually weird that she did that, we usually hang out with them. But she just did something I found so difficult. I was not really prepared either so the shock made my stomach turn a little. Now I just had to play it off.