PREGNANT by my GAY BF {WATTY2022}

Part 30

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Jungkook's POV
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I didn't sleep at all last night. It was hard to when I had to keep an eye on my sister while she struggled with these weird side effects she was having from that damn drug.

The night sweats. Her fighting and yelling at me as I tried my hardest to calm her down. The outburst of her just screaming out. The way she would cry and shake in her sleep making me hold her while she kept apologizing to me

This drug is no joke

But now sitting here in this chair running on no sleep as the sun starts to shine through the curtains. I watch her as she finally gets rest when I start to think about my unborn child

This is the kind of stuff that I use to see in movies while telling myself 'that will never be me', 'I would never have a sibling that would turn to something that can be so deadly on their body', 'I'll do everything I can to make sure my child doesn't turn out like that'"

But I guess I lied to myself

You can't control a persons' life. I just hope as my daughter ages, she will always be able to be comfortable enough to come to me and her father. I would never want her to struggle alone especially when she needs love or someone to just hold her or be there for her

"Jungkook" her voice speaks out shaky but quietly when I quickly raise up from the chair. I know I said I would basically turn the other cheek when it comes to her but there's no way I could let my sister down

I love her way too much and I know my parents would be even more hurt knowing they raised me to be a better man than most of these scumbags out here, like her abusive ex. I was just upset at the time when I said the things that I said to her, but I also do hope that was her last time ever touching that bad stuff

Cause one thing is for certain. I don't trust her right now to be around Y/N and my unborn child. And when she is born, I know in my heart. I still wouldn't want her around her own niece

"Lev - are you ok? How do you feel?" slowly turning to look at me, her eyes squint shut from pain as she tries to move her body to sit up

"I'm really sore" I look at her wrists from when I had to hold her down and I can't help but to feel like a complete asshole when I see my fingerprints as bruises. But she has to understand, the way she was acting yesterday - I didn't have a choice

"Are you hungry? Do you want some water?" I ask and she shakes her head

"I just want to sit here. I feel so ashamed" she starts to cry which makes me sit down next to her. Wrapping her in my arms, I end up making us slowly lay back against the headboard while I play in her hair

"You scared me yesterday. Do you know that? You scared Namjoon, you scared the mother of my child, you had the whole neighborhood looking at us as if we were a bunch of crazy people- "

"Jungkook -"

"I almost hit you Lev" I say cutting her off. Hearing her start to sniffle, her tears start to break through "I didn't know what to do. You were so aggressive and angry at me and everyone around you. Why would you do that? Why would you put me in that situation? How could you be so careless and selfish?"

"I'm sorry"

"No" I say sternly when I take my arms from around her while standing to my feet "Fuck your apology. I want answers"

"I- "

"Before you even speak -" I say cutting her off "I don't want you lying to me. I don't want your 'little' truth. I want to know why. Just give me a why" I watch as she breathes in and then exhales