water droplets //dnf//

ch11: "okay"

(no specific spot for song this chapter)

~Dream POV

After we woke up we did the usual. Made breakfast, played Minecraft, and by now it's 1pm.

As I sit on the couch, watching tv, George is on his phone sitting beside me. He's also eating chips. Every once in a while feeding me one, causing me to laugh everytime.

I hear a ding coming from my phone and assume it's one of my friends. I grab the remote and pause the show, George looking up from his phone realizing the sound has stopped.

I practically scream when I see who texted me.

"SAPNAP"

"what?", George replied seemingly confused.

"sap is back!!"

I reply to him saying I'd call him. I needed to tell him about everything.

"i'm gonna go to my room george. i'll come back out after i tell him some things.."

"are you gonna explain how.. i got here?", he responded chuckling.

"well i'm gonna try."

I get up from the couch, causing George to sit up because he couldn't lay on me anymore. I walk to my room and sit in my gaming chair. I shouldn't be nervous but it's gonna be hard explaining what happened.

I hit the facetime button..

"YOO DREAM"

"hey sap.. how was your trip?"

"good, we went hiking and- uh are you alright, you seem a bit off?

"nono i'm fine. i kinda did something.."

"did you do something stupid dream?"

"i wouldn't say stupid.. okay i kinda might have maybe bought george a plane ticket and he's at my house right now."

"good one dream now what's actually up?"

"sap i'm serious.. here i'll show you"

He scoffs as I stand up and walk to the front room.

"georgie.. sap doesn't believe me.", I say as I point the camera towards his face, I can tell he's getting tired again.

"hey sap *yawn*, i'm here!"

"..GEORGE WHY ARE YOU AT DREAMS HOUSE AND NOT ME"

"i'm his favorite."

I wave to George and walk back to my
room and sit in my previous spot.

"dream.. why did you do that?"

"i really couldn't tell you- one moment i was on twitter and the next i saw i purchased a ticket. i swear i didn't even realize."

I hang my head low, feeling like I disappointed him somehow.

"dream i'm not mad. just confused, i mean you would be too."

"yeah.. sorry"

"don't be sorry dude, how is it being alone with george?"

Here it is. I'm telling him. Normally I wouldn't but right now I couldn't tell George so I had to tell someone, and I knew Sap would help me out.

"sap.. honestly?

it's been horrible."

"wha-"

Before finishing his sentence I continue on with mine.

"he hurts me. the way when i hear his voice i just don't want it to stop. his touch stings me, but in such a good way. i wanna be around him all of the time sap. literally every second. but we'll both end up hurt. i can't stand to be without him but when i'm near him i end up freaking out. yesterday he had to calm me down during a panic attack.. at 4 am! he tries so hard for me and i'm having panic attacks in front of him. i'm gonna hurt him. and he's already hurting me because i'm letting myself fall sap. i'm falling for george. but i shouldn't be. i can't..."

...

"okay"

"okay"

"you like george?"

"i do.."

"he hurts you?"

"not like that.."

"then how dream? i'm here, you can say whatever you need to."

"it's like, when we're holding hands, i never wanna let go, but i know i can't feel that way. it hurts to know i'm falling and i'll never land."

"dream.. it's not wrong to feel like that. you like him. you can't control it."

I know he's right. He's right.

"sap.. george likes guys."

"okay"

"i like guys too"

"dream.. that's okay. if you like dudes then, you like dudes."

"okay."

"well dream. i think you should tell him. it will be hard.. it will. but i'm sure he'll be truthful with you about his feelings"

"i don't deserve him sap. i'm a depressed guy who has panic attacks over nothing. he's a perfect guy who wears skirts and tries to help me whenever he can. i don't deserve him"

"DREAM STOP BRO. when will you understand you're more than you think. you are such a caring guy with such complex thoughts that i couldn't even imagine having. and you're so cool bro. i don't know what else to say.. you just need to know you're worth dude."

"thanks sap"

"of course dream"

"i'll maybe tell him tomorrow"

"dude.. that's huge. i'm so proud of you dream."

I suddenly started crying..

I'm falling. I fell. For my bestfriend. The one that's always there for me. The one in the room just a few feet away. I fell.

"it still hurts sap"

"it will for a while... but dream i believe you'll get through it. push through it for me okay?"

"okay-"

George must've heard me crying because he barged in the room with a scared face, he must've thought I was panicking again.

"jesus dream, i got scared. hey? you okay?"

"yeah.. i'm actually alright."

He walked over to hug me, I could feel him giving a lot of pressure. It really did help. After we abridged the embrace I looked back at Sap and he looked at me. We smiled as George started talking.

"so sapnap.. how was the trip?"

"why are we talking about me.. how's florida dude?"

They continue talking about both of their trips and I zone out. I'm really considering telling George. But I don't think he'll react well. He likes guys but what if I'm not one of them?

~~~

We spend the night talking to Sap and finally get into bed, George hasn't slept in his room more than once, it's always mine. Snuggling up together became the usual, for both of us.

Waking up the next morning, same again. Once again ending up sitting beside eachother on the couch.. But I wanted to do something. Something different.

⚠️: just now realizing i forgot to add a george pov this chapter so oops