water droplets //dnf//

ch13: just talk

(no specific spot for song)

~Dream POV

We got out of the car and walk to eachother, reaching for the others hands. As they clasp together, we walk towards the door.

We make barely make our way in the house before I close the door and stand in front of George. He grabs my face and stands on his tip toes to try and fill the space between us. We connect our lips, breaking apart every few seconds to breathe.

His hands make their way around my neck as I pick him up by the waist. His legs wrap around me and I carry him to the couch.

I lay him on his back and softly lay on top of him. We start to make out even more aggressive than before.. hands touching all over the others bodies. For once I feel genuinely happy. Like everything was perfect.

~George POV

I'm so confused. As I sit here kissing Dream it feels perfect but I'm still scared. This man can't like me. He has to be tricking me or something.

~Dream POV

The making out goes on for quite a while. We both knew we weren't ready to go further yet.

"clay..

clay wait-"

I stop kissing him and we share a concerned look. I sit up and he follows suit.

"did i do something wrong? i'm sorry i-"

"no dream.. i just don't-

i don't know about this.."

I'm already losing him and he's barely been with me. I sit straighter trying to process being broken up with before even being together. George stands with a sad expression and walks out of the door. He just walks out.

I sit there with a shocked expression. It hurt. Sap told me it would hurt. But not like this.

*TW: MENTION OF SUICIDE*

I wish it could all just end. Everything just stop. My world was crumbling without him and it's only been a few seconds.

I lay on the couch eyes shut tightly, holding my breath. Maybe if I hold my breath it'll end. It will be over. I want it to be over.

I want the pain to stop. It'll stop if I end it. Please just end me already.

*TW:OVER*

~George POV

As I walked out I knew it was a bad idea to leave but I kept walking. Not sure of where I was going. Just walking.

I started to tear up I approached a bench on the side of the road. God, what have I done.

I love Dream. More than anything.

But he can't love me back.

I sit on the bench but I start to get cold. I'm wandering in a state I've been in for only a few days. This skirt isn't warming me up. I stand up and start making my way back home. Home. He's my home and I abandoned him.

My eyes still pouring as I walk back to the house. Sudden realization of what might've happened while I was gone made me sprint. He could've hurt himself. I just left him alone.

~Dream POV

I hear the door open and assume it's George. I stay in my huddled up position. The door slams shut and I squint my eyes harder from the sudden noise. My breathing got shaky and I covered my ears trying to drown everything out.

I feel his arms wrap around me and I resist it at first. Trying to pull away, and my arms trying to push his arms off of me. But when I hear his soothing voice "shh" me, I start to calm. See what he can do to me? Just like that.

"clay.. clay. please talk to me"

I keep breathing shakily, unable to let any words out.

"i didn't mean i don't like you. dream i'm in love with you..

but it hurts to love you when i know it's not returned."

Those words stung. Burned so deep in my brain I involuntarily let out a screech.George gasps and rubs my back. I open my mouth but no words come out. Until I push myself to reply.

"geo- george. do you not think it hurts me. to feel you. to hear you. to see you even. it cuts me so deep. it burns me. it stings.. it stings in places i didn't even know i could be hurt. you leave marks george. to the point where i can't think straight when i see you. and don't get me started on how much it hurts to hold your hand, or cuddle. knowing someday i won't have you anymore. and YOU WALKED OUT. i finally was able to grasp my feelings for you. able to tell myself it's okay to like you. and you walked out. you have no clue what hurting is right now george. you really do hurt me."

I don't know how I managed to say all of it but by the time I was finished, I was out of breath. I looked up and saw him crying. But I wanted to hug him?

After he hurt me, and doesn't seem to care. I want to help.

"drea- clay. i never thought about that.. i wasn't trying to hurt you. i would never try and hurt you. ever..

so you actually like me?"

"obviously george"

"oh.. i'm sorry i hurt you. i swear all i wanna do is keep you safe. i thought it would be the best to leave. for your sake."

With those words I turn my whole body towards him. He's still facing the ground. My right hand makes it's way to George's jawline. I trace it with my finger and smile. I place my hand under his chin and softly run my thumb against his bottom lip. I turned his face, so that he was facing my direction. He was quivering under my touch.

"i never want you to leave george.. never."

It truly was my biggest fear. The people I love leaving me. And he thought it was the best thing. Sometimes I wonder how two brains can be so different from each other yet so similar.

We unanimously lean in for a kiss. This one was softer than normal. Lips meeting with a sincere intention. It amazes me how after an argument his words allow me to forgive him so quick.

Our kiss comes to an end as we cuddle beside eachother, holding on for dear life. I lay down, and he is laying on my chest, arms around me. I rub his back and he yawns.

"dream this is gonna be hard"

"tell me something i don't know"

I place a kiss on the top of his head.

"but it's worth it dream. i'd do anything for you"

"promise me something georgie?"

"what?"

"promise me you won't leave me broken.."

"clay. i promise. i swear on my life, i'm not leaving you hurt ever again."

I squeezed him, signifying how thankful I was for him. We both continue to yawn. Soon falling asleep in each other's arms.

I want to spend every waking moment and every resting second with him and I can't help it. I'm just in love with him.