Take Flight

May I Take You Out

"I'm cooking dinner."

"Woah nah. No. Nope. You aren't."

"What, you think you're a better cook ?"

"Do you even know how to make pasta ?"

"Last time we talked about pasta, yours was flowing all over the place."

"Okay, forget it. Anyways, you're not cooking."

"Fine let me take you out then."

You don't answer. All you can do is just stare at her with your mouth open in surprise. Your lips are trying to spell out words but they can't seem to really get out of your throat. She is looking at you with a smirk, her eyebrow slightly raised, a teasing face. She's waiting for you to answer, and if not, at least to move something else than your jaw.

Out ? Does she really want that ? That possibility, almost certainty of being noticed, watched and photographed, did she truly think about it ? Is she truly okay about being seen outside with you ? To be seen with you at all ? Won't she be ashamed ? You're a nobody while she's this goddess on top of the world, dominating all, won't she feel bad about it ? Won't she hide when she sees a tabloid about her at a magazine kiosque, whenever she sees her face and yours pictured together ? Won't she run as soon as she gets the chance ? And are you ready to be revealed to the world, you, the useless unknown and invisible piece of shit [AN : i'm sorry reader, you aren't, you are worth it and loved, you're beautiful and important, but that's for the sake of this ff] ? Won't you feel like running when people see you holding onto the most beautiful woman in the world when you're such an ugly mess [AN : again you're NOT] ? Won't people attack you, yell at you for staying with this woman you don't deserve, demanding for her to leave you for someone worthy of her love ? Won't you two end if any of this relationship goes out into the world ?

"Hey, are you okay ? Darling please say something."

You're drawn out of your thoughts by the suave voice of Angelina speaking to you as you haven't been able to voice out any word in too long.

"I don't know what you want me to say."

She slightly frowns, not quite wanting to let you see it, but you know her face so well that you could read her from thousands of miles away. She leans back on your kitchen counter as she always does, and crosses her arms on her chest, tilting her head to the side just a bit, a look on her face expressing her want for explanations.

"I don't really get why you're asking me that ? All you have to do is say yes or no. I won't be upset if you don't want to be seen outside with me, but you have to tell me."

You lick and bite your top lip and draw a chair from under the table so that you can sit. As you expected it, Angelina mimics your moves and sit just next to you, facing you now, only a couple inches away. She takes your hands between both of hers and sweetly smile, an understanding look in her eyes. You know she wants you to feel heard and loved, and she doesn't want you to feel forced to do anything you wouldn't feel comfortable enough to do.

"Tell me what's troubling you. I can see the questions running through your head," she almost whispers as she softly pokes the middle of your forehead with the tip of her finger.

"I..."

You choke on your words, not knowing how to voice any of your thoughts without making her leave in the next minute. She might say she loves you, but you're still full of doubts and every second you're scared to lose her. You're scared to say one word that would make her turn her back on you, and you don't know if you could go through this.

"Hey. Hey, it's okay. You can tell me anything. I'm not going anywhere."

She lifts your chin with her right hand to make you look into her eyes. They're so full of warmness and love, how could any of this be fake ?

"I don't wanna lose you. That's all."

Her hand moves from the small bump of your chin to your cheek, her soft fingers making you shiver as they linger on your skin.

"You won't. Ever. You are so not getting rid of me," she says half chuckling, "I am not going away. I love you. I do. I love you, and I am not leaving. I don't care what people could say, you are right for me, I belong with you, and this thing we have, it's stronger than anything in the universe. I don't care about the world, all I care about is you. And all I care about is how you feel, everyday, every minute, every second. So this is up to you. I know what is going through your head right now, but you don't need to worry about how I will act, because I won't change, that I can promise you. Now it's your choice, it's about whether you're ready to face the big world outside. I know it may sound scary to have your life be so drastically changed in a matter of minutes, being in the headlines and seeing your face at every street corner, so take your time. Don't rush anything. I don't want you to break, okay ? It is up to you. I am sorry if I made you wonder so much about... well too many things, isn't that right ? It wasn't my intention, I only meant it as an 'I love you and I want to share this love with the world'. But I'll wait until you're ready, even if it takes ten or thirty years. I'll wait for you, because this is up to you, and I love you."

Tears are threatening to roll down your cheeks. Only this woman could make you cry. Only her. It's only her, and always her. You love her too much it hurts. You don't deserve such a beautifully kind and understanding person by your side, not you [AN : YOU ABSOLUTELY DESERVE SOMEONE LIKE THAT OF YOU DONT HAVE THEM ALREADY]. She's more than good, she's the personification of perfection, she's out of this world and you're just... well you're you, and that alone speaks for itself.

"Now. I'm still hungry."

You can't help but chuckle and get out of your thoughts as you hear her words. You know that was her intention. You look up to meet her gaze. Your lips are trembling from the words you can't believe your about to say.

"We could eat at yours. Maddox is home."

"We could. We could meet Mad."

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ik i basically jumped two fckn big steps in their relationship in like two chapters but i needed to (ac i didn't i just didn't know what to write after the ily moment and that seemed pretty alright so-)
anyways she's gonna meet maddox and all this shits gonna be a fun one
HOPE YOU LIKED ME INSULTING YOU AS MY OC
-lou~

(sorry-)