Take Flight

Make Me Happy

"I am not even gonna ask whether you're ready or not."

"I'm ready."

You exhale and a small cloud of smoke escapes your cold lips.

"Ready to take off and run."

Angelina's laughters rings in your hear like the happiest melody and your muscles can't help but relax just a bit, your heart softened by the warm noise that you'd want to listen to at all times.

"C'mon we don't bite."

She picks up Maddox who is jumping up and down, pulling her arm so as to make it inside the house. She softly pats her head and strokes her hair as you've been used to seeing her do. She glances at you and only needs a second to read you, making her smile warmly.

"I promise you're gonna be alright. They're nicer than me."

You nervously chuckle and you hear Angelina joining you.

"Just be yourself. I know it's cheesy and easier said than done, but just do what you do when we're home, when you're with Maddox. You've never really struggled after the first day around him."

"That's the point though. This is the first day."

"I know. But you will be just fine I promise you. I know you're nervous and you have all the rights to be but... This is really a no-pressure thing, you can do a thousand mistakes tonight, they won't care or even remember it by tomorrow. The only thing that matters is that we love each other, Maddox and you love each other, and you make both of us happy. Apart from that, they don't care about anything. C'mon. I promise you'll be fine. I'll always be by your side. Besides... you look hot."

A small laugh escapes your throat and if your anxiety still hasn't gone away, Angelina's words warm your heart and your whole body with it. She smiles to you. This bright smile that feels like home, that lifts up your spirits on any day. The smile that made you fall in love. She softly takes your hand in hers and kiss it softly with only the tip of her plump lips. How you wish they kissed yours in that moment. You are once again bewitched by her goddess-like attitude.

"Time to go in darling."

All of your uncertainties fall back onto your shoulders but her warm touch eases the pain. You just let yourself be drawn inside that strangers' home, following in the exact footsteps of the woman you love. In only a few seconds you are surrounded by so much warmth and comfort that even your chest seems to be relaxed for a while. But this moment of relief and slight contentment comes to an end as soon as you discern the figures of Angelina's mother and brother just a few feet away. Without truly knowing it, you turn around and run outside back again.

Your heart seems to sink inside your ribcage, and it suddenly seems to be harder to breathe. It feels just as if an incredible weight had crushed your small body and you fight to stay standing. The whole world goes black and you feel like falling, if you can feel your body at all. Everything about you is numb, out of place, out of time, and your mind is spiraling way too fast for you to try and understand it. It's all blurry, like soiled by dirt, only all the dirt is the thoughts that invade your mind at all time.

Your mind is too busy fighting your consciousness and your ability to see the world clearly to hear the door open and close quickly behind you. The hands on your shoulders sliding down your arms seem to shake you up, the blur isn't as dramatic anymore, but your heart keeps pounding faster and harder than you can handle. The cold burns your sin and you want to scream, you can't help but fall to your feet, slowed down by the same hands that brought some more reality into your brain just a second ago.

"Honey."

You let yourself fall completely on her, your body pressed against hers, and you feel her slender fingers, warm and soft, drawing your chin in her direction. Her bright blue eyes are the dearest thing to look at and for a moment your heart doesn't feel so heavy anymore. She plays with the strands of hair spread on your face to clear them out, the familiar reassuring smile glued on her face.

"I'm sorry."

She cannot hide the confusion in her eyes.

"What for, honey ?"

"You shouldn't have to see me that way. I'm
sorry."

You can feel her muscles relax but her embrace tighten, just as if she wanted you to make sure she was real, and that she wasn't going away anytime soon. She looks right into your brown eyes in that way you know is so unique to her.

"Darling, I wouldn't have stayed if all I wanted was the shallow part of you. I love you, and by that I mean all of you. You can act in whatever way you want, look exactly how you want to, I would never care new use all I see is you, and your love. Never be scared or ashamed to be vulnerable around me, I know how strong you are but everybody can feel a little down sometimes and I want you to know that I'm here for you in those times. You don't have to be tough and strong all the time, not when you're with me. No face that you put on could ever throw me off. You're it for me. You don't have to act the way your think perfect is all the time, because you are perfect no matter the circumstance. "

"No I'm not. I will never be good enough for you."

"Is that what's going on inside that little head of yours ?"

She softly lifts your head again so that you look back to her.

"Darling you're far better than anyone I'd ever deserve. If that's the way your mind works, please talk to me. I know how anxious you get, and I know I haven't seen you this way since that day at your appartement but... if this is a lasting thing, you know I'm here, right ? C'mon, take a big breath, alright ? Inhale and exhale, you're gonna be alright. I'm here."

Her heartbeats echoes in your body through your back, the soft melody of her voice softens your spirits and you could almost fall asleep now, still madly conflicted but feeling loved. Somehow understood.

"We can just go ho..."

"No. No, I want to make you happy for once. I want to spend this evening with your family."

"Honey, you don't need to do anything to make me happy."

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okay so i wrote it in my other story thank you but i've been struggling a lot w my mental health lately and overall in the last month so i haven't been able to write anything. i usually like to be a chapter ahead, idk why but i've always done this but since i had this chapter ready i'm not gonna make you guys wait and post it even if i haven't even started writing the next one. i'm not sure yet as to when i'm gonna be able to write again but i promise you guys will be updated in july. anyways, i hope you liked this, and pls be nice i'm trying to do my best at the moment.
-lou~