Hiding in the Shadows

59. Say Something

"Well, it's fractured." Callie Torres said as she examined the x ray up on the light board in Meredith's private room. "I think we can just do a hand brace instead of a cast and it will probably only take about four weeks to heal. You're lucky."

Derek nodded, not really paying attention. He was focused solely on the occupant in the bed. He looked up at the clock again. Eight hours since they had finished her surgery and she showed no signs of waking up.

Callie sat down in one of the chairs in the room. Everyone had either went back to work or to grab a bite to eat if they were lucky enough to be off. She looked at him.

"You had to have hit him pretty hard to do that kind of damage to your hand. You are a surgeon Dr. Shepherd and a damn fine one. Why?"

He scowled at her. She put up a hand in defense.

"Nothing against Grey, I just want to know what you were thinking."

"I wasn't. I just wanted him to die and I wanted to be the one to make that happen. He was standing over her going in for the...kill..." He winced. "...and I just...lost it. I have been fighting her, fighting myself...my emotions and I just...snapped. I kept telling myself I didn't love her...I had only spoken my first real words to her less than a month ago. How can you love someone you barely know? I was almost too late. I didn't answer my phone when my mom called...if she hadn't of called the hospital...I would've been too late. What kind of person am I?" He ranted.

Callie looked around for help. She didn't know Derek from Adam...and he wanted love advice from her? The only words he had ever spoken to her were 'Hey you, Ortho girl, I need a consult'.

"Um...I really hope that is a rhetorical question." She said.

"What?" He looked at he as if he had forgotten she was in the room.

Okay then...

"You took the day off...you? Cristina Yang...competitive ball busting Cardio bitch? Took the day off? Ha! You will be jonesing for a surgery in two hours." Alex taunted as he, Izzie and Cristina all walked back in to Meredith's room.

"Shut it Jock Itch." Cristina said, winking at Derek as she sat on the other side of Meredith.

"Not funny Yang. I have to put up with it from him...he's my boss...you're not." Alex retorted. "Here dude...you look like you need this." He said shoving some coffee and a chocolate chip muffin into his good hand.

"Did you have your hand checked out?" Izzie asked him but she looked at Callie.

"Yeah, it's fractured. He won't be operating for a month or so." Callie informed Izzie. She got up. "I am going to go get you a brace and I will be back in an hour to check on Grey. Page me if you need me."

"Ortho Chick is hot in a break your bones kind of way." Alex mused watching her leave.

"I thought you were all in love with Meredith." Cristina singsonged.

Derek glared at Alex.

"Chill dude, we are just friends."

Silence swept over the room. They sat there just watching Meredith and the monitors, just waiting for a change.

"What is taking so damn long?" Izzie said frustrated. She moved closer to Meredith, leaning over Cristina.

"Her body has to heal. She has been through a lot the last few weeks. She is going to be fine." Cristina said, scowling at Izzie's proximity.

"Wow, aren't you all glass half full..." Izzie said.

"Izzie? Do you like coffee?"

"Yeah, why?"