Wasn't meant to be.. [Draco Malfoy] English version

Chapter 17

Pov Juliette

I'm on the train on my way to Hogwarts, Draco had already left when I got back downstairs after looking at the picture albums. 'I'll take you to the train,' I hear Narcissa say. Now I'm alone on the train, and to be honest I feel anything but safe. I huddle together in the corner of the cabin, resting my head against the window and watching the moon reflect on the water. The moment with Draco repeats itself in my mind. How soft his lips were, which surprised me. A boy with baggy eyes, a father with loose hands-

Suddenly I'm sitting at a desk, my feet dangling above the floor. My arms are short and chubby. I look at the drawing in front of me, everything is out of line. I hear voices coming from below. A heated discussion I could hear it all too well. When I jump off the chair I recognize the room. This is the room where I was just this afternoon. My room. The weather was different, the fog outside was gone and the warm rays of the sun were shining through my window. Everything in my the room was warmly lit. I didn't understand Narcissa's statement the sunshine in the house until I ran out into the hallway with my short legs. The hallway was dark and chilly unlike my room. A yellow dress swirled around me. My little shoes could be heard tapping on the stairs. I could hear the voices downstairs better and better, Narcissa's voice was gone and I could only hear Lucius now. When I am almost downstairs I stop to look between the brackets of the banister. I see Draco and Lucius facing each other and I see the anger in Lucius' eyes. 'Yes father,' I hear Draco sob. I feel the urge of the young me to run to him but I get up from the stairs and want to run upwards, knowing full well that this is none of my business. Then I hear a loud rumble and Narcissa calls out. 'LUCIUS.' I see Draco approaching at the bottom of the stairs, my eye caught by his tomato red cheek. I hold out my hand. A tentative smile comes onto his face. We run upstairs hand in hand.

I look at the ground with a dead stare. Not knowing if I should be happy about this memory. A silent tear slides down my cheek. I feel sorry for Draco, I couldn't support him this whole time. I startle when the door to my cabin is pulled open violently. "Heyy Juliette!" the 2 happy faces of Fred and George come around the corner. I quickly wipe away my tear. If there's anything I don't want to talk about right now it's Draco and me. I give the two boys a forced smile. "What are you doing here?" says Fred as he comes to sit next to me. I'm lucky I got to borrow some of Narcissa's old clothes because if I was still in the Slytherin school uniform now, everyone would have quickly made the connection between Draco and me. 

'Uhm I had to go to Diagon Alley.'

'Oh so did we! We had to take care of some things.' says George as he rests his hands on his knees. George is sitting across from Fred and me when the train comes to a stop. 'What's going on.' Distressed, I look out the window hoping to see something. George walks to the corridor and I see him stiffen when he sees something at the end of the train car. Then I see it. It flies past the window. I freeze with fear. My gaze races to Fred. His gaze changes to sympathy. George quickly closes the door and shuts the shutters on the windows.

I stare dead ahead. motionless. Fred pulls me to him. 'Everything will be all right,' his words make me relax. I feel his hand move gently back and forth across my back. He keeps repeating the phrase softly as if saying it to himself as well. The smell of butterbeer and caramel toffees enters my nose and it makes me feel familiar. I hold Fred even tighter when I hear people screaming. I want to help them but know that as someone who has little knowledge of this world, I can offer limited help. A hopeless but angry feeling surfaces. We sit deathly still for another 10 minutes, hoping the Dementors don't find us. When the train cautiously begins to move again I allow myself a big intake of breath. "Why are you wearing guys perfume?" says Fred smiling to lighten the situation a bit. I swallow. 'I was looking for a perfume in Diagon Alley for Oliver, it's his birthday soon.' Their eyes widen. 'Almost forgot!" say Fred and George laughing in chorus.

If it wasn't for Luna's huge Crush on Oliver, I wouldn't have known any other excuse.'I wouldn't do this scent, Draco happens to have this one,' I press my jaws together hard at Fred's words. 'And you know this because? George bumps his twin brother on the shoulder with a laugh. 'Because there's literally a whole cloud of 200 feet around him.' The boys laugh at Fred's words while I silently look out the window. I don't want to talk about Draco.... Even though they are basically right. I roll my eyes and still have to laugh a little.'I didn't know you had so much contact with Oliver.' I could feel George's questioning eyes burning. I was still looking out at the passing scenery.'Oh sometimes in the hallway. He and Luna have a lot of contact.'The three of us walk into Hogwarts and suddenly it hits me. Enthusiastically, I jump forward and turn to look at the boy with hope. 'How was this afternoon with Harry!' Still walking (of which I walk backwards.) they answer. 'Not so hard.' hisses George. 'Hermione will tell you tonight,' says Fred softly. I sigh 'okay...' I wish they would tell me now but somewhere that's not smart either in the middle of the main entrance corridor and I knew that too. I wave when the boys and I both have to go in a different direction.

Very clumsily I swing forward again enthusiastically so that I know where I am walking but at that moment I bump into someone. I recognize the perfume immediately and I am happy to bump into him. As I get up from the ground I just landed on with a loud bang, all sorts of phrases go through my head.I'm so sorry that I don't remember anything.I didn't know my parents did that to me.I looked at photo books with your mother- You were handsome before as well- No Juliette not that.I stammer a bit as I wipe Narcissa's black dress clean. 'Draco I- I-' I look up and there is no Draco, there is no one standing there. But at the end of the corridor I see Draco walking just around the corner. 'Seriously? After everything that's happened today he's going to ignore me.