𝐼𝒻 𝐼 𝑅𝑒𝓂𝑒𝓂𝒷𝑒𝓇... (𝒜 𝐵𝓊𝒸𝓀𝓎 𝐵𝒶𝓇𝓃𝑒𝓈 𝒮𝓉𝑜𝓇𝓎)

5. Back Stage Act

I walk to the back of the stage. I hear Mary acting, she's saying something about all the best people. She is cupping Bucky's face. I can see he is uncomfortable. I want to bitch slap Mary for making him feel this way.

"Okay! Cut!" I hear Mr Tully say making my thoughts disappear.

Bucky jumps off stage and walks toward me and Steve with a relieved look on his face.

"Thank god I finished with that." He says Smiling.

"Do you guys wanna come to my house." Steve offers

"Sure I have free time" I say accepting his offer

"Sure!" Bucky says.

"You two wait for me outside I have to pack this up" I say

***

I walk back stage Bucky and Mary had finished their lines and I way packing up to sewing kit.

"Are you and Bucky dating" I hear a voice behind me say.

"What? No!" I answer fast. Maybe too fast. Suspicion grows on her face. But the thought of dating Bucky. I mean sure, he is super nice to be and we're friends. We have been friends for almost 9 months.

"But you too are always together." She shrugs still not convinced. Jealousy creeping into her voice.

"Steve is also with us." I say trying to leave.

She lets out a fake laugh and smile.

"Of of course, I mean, why should he date you." She said

"Exactly." I think

" You're practically invisible, a nothing and nobody. Bucky is way too good for you he just pities you."

Her last words make me think, being confused. "What do you mean by that?" I say

"You haven't noticed? you're lonely, looking like a charity case. it clear that he only takes care of you for those reasons. poor Bucky he probably annoyed with you already." She says with a smile.

"Could you not talk about him like that" I says as I clench my fists. trying trying ore her. I knew that only day someone would speak about Bucky the way she did. I am a bad influence.

"He would tell me if I annoyed him." I add.

"Really? Would he? How long have you know him for? Like 9 months? No really that long. And me well I've know him for 5 years. He'll ditch you anyways. You don't have a place here, your a nobody." She says smiling.

You don't have a place here. The familiar words bring back memories. I begin to tear up. I walk away fast not wanting her to know. I storm out of the building. I pass Steve and Bucky who look at me in confusion.

"Nick! Wait!" I heard Bucky yell, but I began to run. The sound of heavy foot steps follow me. A hand grabs my arm stopping me. I turn around to see Bucky blue eyes with concern looking back at mine.

"Why ae you leaving I thought we had plans." he says with a worried and confused look on his face.

"You-You don't have to look after me!" I says as i get free from my grip and run.

"what." I hear him say as I run.

***

I slam the door when I get home, anger fill my head. the rage make me want to smash my apartment. I don't as I realise I don't have the money for it. Questions fill my head. Did I mistake friendship for pity? Does Bucky see me as a Charity case? Is this the reason why he always asks how I am? is this relationship even real, am i a burden. And that thought causes an unknown pain.