Love has been an example of half and half shit. You can feel pain and also pleasure. Euphoric or either harsh. It was like falling in love and yet you where met in a harsh reality. And that is exactly what Miya Atsumu is experiencing at the time being.
Miya Atsumu has been and always have loved Sakusa Kiyoomi, one of the top aces in volleyball here in Japan. And now both of them are together as a team, Atsumu couldn't be much more happier than he already is. He was hopeless in love with the germaphobe when flowers where already blooming inside of him.
Coughing up velvety smooth petals, his lungs unable to breath, mind hazing and tears where streaming down on his cheeks. He couldn't accept the fact that he's really having this goddamn disease which he taught it was just a fantasy and nothing else.
Hanahaki Disease; a disease in where you suffer and petals flowing out of your mouth, because of the fact you are experiencing one-sided love. The only cure is to confess your love for that person and if not, you will eventually die.
The fact that Atsumu was beyond scared for his life. He couldn't die knowing he has his brother on his side and he just couldn't leave him. Sure their father is with them but they barely see him because after their mother died from a car accident, their father found someone else to replace their dear mother and they couldn't forgive him.
On his 23 years of existence, he encountered his love smiling at him as he can only excitedly smile back and before he can greet him, something is poking out of his throat as if it was stuck as he hurriedly went to the bathroom, gagging and coughing so violently. His hand on his mouth, as he slowly pulled away and eyes widen. He couldn't believe at the fact his hands where holding velvety petals and blood on his hands. He could feel his eyes blur, his head dizzy and his hands shaking. Crying violently and he couldn't help but to run away from the bathroom, away from the gym, away from the confuse sakusa kiyoomi.
Since then, he gather up all his strength and will just to avoid his undying feelings for his beloved Omi when he knew in fact he couldn't ignore that his heart was longing for the germaphobe. On the other hand, Sakusa was beyond confused on the faux blonde's behavior as he couldn't understand how he was cold and distant towards him. He only sighed at this and went back to practice.
"Tsumu, you need to confess eventually to him" a certain brunette hugged his best friend, and tears flooding out of his brown coffee like eyes. Atsumu only smiled sadly and hugged Oikawa, whispering "I can't Oikawa. I think it's too late for me" he said. Oikawa abruptly pulled away and looked at Atsumu, more like glaring. "You haven't even tried and yet you're giving up? Please Atsumu, do this for your brother, for your friends, for m-me" the two best friends bursts into tears as they cried. Atsumu wanted to confess, he really did but the uneasy feeling lingering at the pit of his stomach. He trusted his best friend. He couldn't say it to his twin's face as he knew he would march up to sakusa and beat the shit out of him. "Babe, please confess. I don't want to loose you too" Oikawa managed to let the words out without stuttering, holding Atsumu's hands as he caressed it tenderly. Atsumu weakly smiled before coughing again and another velvety petal slipped out of his lips as Oikawa watched in horror and despair. "D-Don't worry Kawa. I'll be fine"
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Atsumu was shaking, trembling and eyes where blurry. He couldn't comprehend what's happening. He coughed violently as his throat tightens, releasing petals all over the flourished floor of their gym. He's unable to breath, just a single air to enter his lungs. He couldn't do it. He couldn't confess. He wants to take the petals on his lungs out. He really wanted to. He really wanted to run away but he couldn't.
It was the day he needs to confess to Sakusa and hopefully he return his feelings, although it was really impossible for the blonde haired male. He was fidgeting at that time, wanting to run away but his best friend, Oikawa didn't let him as he only pushed Atsumu on to the gym's door of their team. Atsumu has asked his bestie to accompany him in case shits about to go down.
And as he was pushed through the huge metallic doors, he was greeted with the team looking at him sadly and as if they where hiding something from him. He looked confused as they made way for Atsumu to see the least thing he was expected to see. And there he saw a certain black hair with someone much more taller and the familiar green haired male, wearing a certain white colored jersey. And that was enough to trigger the petals out.
Loud coughing was heard and as usual Sakusa is alert as he looked back and saw Atsumu coughing violently. He looked in disgust and also concerned as he notices petals where flowing out and not just that but drops of blood is also present. Oikawa who notices everything, rushed to Atsumu as he frantically yelled for help towards the team "CALL THE AMBULANCE! QUICK!"
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Arriving at the hospital with the pale and thin Atsumu, coughing quite vigorously as his mouth was still spilling petals and blood. Sakusa who also came to Atsumu's side was shaken up by the thought of Atsumu looking ever so sick. He didn't knew anything about this. Oikawa was still crying as they rushed Atsumu's body on the emergency room. They where held back by the nurses as they only could watch Atsumu taking them away from the two. Sakusa could only gaze on the door, not knowing what to do as he could feel tears where flowing out of his eyes. He snaps his eyes to Oikawa, now crouching down as he was crying violently. "WHAT HAPPENED TO ATSUMU?!" He asked, more like demanded. Oikawa slowly lifter his head up, glaring at Sakusa. He stood up abruptly as he held Sakusa's collar as he punched him on his face making Sakusa fall back. He groaned in pain, shocked at Oikawa punching him so suddenly. "And now you're asking me? WHAT THE FUCK SAKUSA?! HE SUFFERED BECAUSE OF YOU!" "HOW WAS THAT SUPPOSE TO BE MY FAULT?!" "HE HAS HANAHAKI DISEASE!" Oikawa screamed at him as he panted because of the continuous tears flowing out of his eyes. Sakusa looked shocked and pain evident on his eyes.
'He likes me?' Sakusa could only asked for himself. He didn't knew about this and he never acknowledge the blonde boy's love for him as he knew he only shove the boy away from him, wanting to also get rid of the feelings he had for Atsumu. Ushijima had recently confessed after they broke up with Tendou and Sakusa being the oblivious person he is, accepted it. It was so painful to watch how his love broke down when he saw them together. He was also bewildered by the fact Atsumu caught the impossible disease and the reason is because of him. He loves Sakusa. And Sakusa loves him back but the timing is just...
He sat up, curling into a ball, his hands interlocking his black hair as he grip it tightly. "I-I loved him...I really did. I'm such a c-complete idiot! WHY AM I SO FUCKING OBLIVIOUS?! ATSUMU!" He screamed his name. Oikawa just watched how Sakusa broke down. He couldn't help but to hug him hesitantly as Sakusa flinched and relaxed at the touch. Even if he was a germaphobe, he craved for the warmth. Atsumu's warmth. He cried at Oikawa's arms, wanting to take the pain away.
Until the doctor along with some nurses walked towards them "Are You Atsumu Miya's relatives?" he asked formally as Oikawa and Sakusa stood up and immediately rushed towards them. "W-We are the close friends of Atsumu. What happened to him?" Oikawa asked desperately. Sakusa's heart pierce and torn into pieces. He was a mess and so does the brunette beside of him.
"Atsumu Miya is..."
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Atsumu woke up. He scanned the room and he winced at the light trapping him. He slowly sat up, as he couldn't feel the petals anymore. "Atsumu" the ever so familiar voice called out as he looked beside him. His eyes water as he bursts into tears. He immediately hugged the person beside him, re-joyed and finally content. He smiled as tears continuously kept on flooding out of his caramelized eyes.
"Mama..."
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day 1: petal (complete)
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