the chaotic adventures of sakuatsu.

•Nothing Like Us•

"hey atsumu, i'll be heading out for a bit" sakusa said, already grabbing his shoes by the rack, and he was dressed so formally. "oh, where are you heading omi-kun?" atsumu popped up behind him, curiousity got the best of him.

"i'll be hanging out with some guys. they invited me" he answered, plainly before he opened the door and quickly saying goodbye before the door slammed shut, not allowing atsumu to even greet him back.

"...bye i guess" atsumu said, sighing heavily before he do his chores. it had been like this for the past few days. sakusa going out, which was rare, and going home late at night.

atsumu didn't knew anything. he didn't know sakusa's friend. he didn't know where he was heading at. the exact location, exact place. but he only knew is that he comes home by midnight.

he would wait for him in the living room, sometimes ending up asleep before he could see his omi and sometimes, he would be greeted by a drunk sakusa by the door steps.

he didn't knew what was happening. but he didn't wanted to be selfish and let sakusa do whatever he wants.

atsumu felt lonely, not knowing what to do. he missed those times when sakusa could make him some breakfast in bed, taking a shower together, watching ghibli movies, cuddling on the sofa, playing volleyball together, and just spending quality times together.

he missed their routines, their moments, their time. he missed his boyfriend. he missed it. yet he couldn't confront his boyfriend and just taking his rights to see his friends.

no, atsumu is done being the selfish bastard he is from the past. he wanted to make sakusa comfortable and free around him. he didn't want to make their relationship complicated just because he yearns for the attention from his boyfriend. no, never in a million years.

but atsumu is also hurting, he admitted that. yet he prioritize his boyfriend more than himself.

he went to their guestroom, camera and the computer on the desk. this was his comfort place. whenever he felt down, miserable, angry, bored, he would only sing his heart out here in this very room.

sitting in front of it, he clicked his youtube channel. he thinks it'll be a perfect time to go on live again. fixing his camera and microphone, he went live.

"hey guys. atsumu here. so uh..."

he started off quietly and awkward, not knowing what to do. the chat box was going crazy, commenting and encouraging atsumu, which he was grateful for. he took a deep breathe, calming himself down.

"i'm bored and i guess i'll be singing, live"atsumu said and the chat box went crazy again. atsumu chuckles.

"no need to go on a rampage, so chill" but the chat box hasn't calmed down.

"okay okay, i'll be setting something up before starting" he said. fixing the camera and so does the mic. he searched up for the tune of the song.

when he's done, he announced once again.

"so i'm done. so today i'll be singing something...dramatic? broken? i don't even know how to describe it. but this song means to me. i wanted to express myself by singing this song. and it's dedicated for...someone"

he said, nervous. some people where asking who's this someone and why did atsumu looked hurt? sad? they where ready to throw hands on anyone who hurted their precious baby.

he took a deep breathe and sighing heavily. clicking the tune, they knew it'll be a sad song alright.

"lately i've been thinking, thinking 'bout what we have" atsumu sang, his voice so smooth.