the chaotic adventures of sakuatsu.

•Truth or Dare pt.2•

the rain poured loudly, the sound of the pitter patter of the rain was muffled by the window. he knew it was raining yet he didn't care nor hear the noises of the outside world.

it had been days, weeks, months until it's been a year after that incident happened. sakusa was beyond lifeless to say. he couldn't contact the blonde boy, nor he can talk with him in person. he remember those times that he would wait and stay for days and nights in front of the miya's doorsteps, only to get pushed away or punched by the other twin.

he felt worthless, he felt like a shit-head. he felt so shitty that he himself, admitted that he's the most dense and oblivious person in the whole entire universe.

atsumu had blocked him, from his social medias, contact number, from his home, and on to his heart and mind. he blocked sakusa completely.

it was march 20, sakusa's birthday. yet for him, it had been a year ever since he could reach out for his atsu. he felt lifeless, not knowing what to do.

atsumu is completely gone and it's his fault.

suddenly, his thoughts came into a halt when suddenly someone knocked on the door. he grumpily turn away, not wanting to deal any more shits.

"kiyoomi? it's me, komori" komori's voice was muffled behind the door. sakusa sighed. "come in" he said.

komori came in, landing his gaze on the figure whose curled up all over the covers of the bed. he sighed, he didn't want to see kiyoomi like this.

"hey, get up. let's go and celebrate your birthday!" kiyoomi said, trying to sound energetic as much as he could. "leave me alone, komori" sakusa said under the covers. komori sighed and frowned.

"kiyo, it's your birthday. you need to celebrate it--" "what's the point on celebrating such a shitty event when i'll just die anyway" sakusa said, his voice so dark and deep.

"kiyo, i told you. no negative vibes. plus, you need to live. in order to see him once again..." komori said, careful about his choice of words.

"that's the whole point. what's tge point on living when he wouldn't want to see me again. he hates me, komori. i should dissapear" kiyoomi said, tearing up. his voice broke by the end of the sentence as he suddenly cried out of nowhere.

komori took action, quickly running towards his cousin. he removed the covers off of him. sakusa layed there, tears streaming down his cheeks, and curling up like a ball, his arms around him, seeking for any sorth of warmth.

komori quickly comforted his breaking cousin, hugging him as he stroke his curly hair, patting his back.

"hush now kiyo. don't cry now. atsumu wouldn't like it if he knew you've been crying the whole timw. it's not like he hates you, even though you did something stupid but i know that boy. he's literally a simp iver you. he wouldn't shut up talking about you. omi here, omi there, omi everywhere! he loves you a lot kiyoomi. don't tell me you're giving up on him" komori said, pulling away as he looked at his cousin's pale face.

sakusa looked down, averting his gaze. "i'm not giving up on him, mori. i just...i couldn't forgive myself for hurting the most precious thing in my life. i'm such an idiot to not answering his questions sooner. i regretted everything that i've done to hurt atsumu. i really love him, until now. i wouldn't stop loving him. i'm scared. i'm scared that he'll find someone better, someone who could give him much more attention and love. someone who could make him happy. someone...who's not me" sakusa said, tearing up again.

komori teared up, he could feel his cousin's pain thru words. he hugged him. that's the only thing he could do. he admitted that sakusa had done something so idiotic but he knew his cousin has changed.