the chaotic adventures of sakuatsu.

•Day 6: Friends•

Ah damn.

Falling in love sucks, huh? Why? It's a huge pain in the ass.

But then falling inlove is a bliss, so good but it'll be better if the other person reciprocate your feelings back.

hi, my name is atsumu miya. and this is my story

on how we only stayed friends.

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april 28th

it's the beginning of a new start for me, trying out and meeting my new team for volleyball. it's really a nerve wrecking not until you saw someone that caught your attention.

ah so this is sakusa kiyoomi, huh?

i never payed attention to anyone else than a cretain spiker. he seems different, way different than i have expected. he lacks communications, interactions and i suppose he's the cold introvert kind of guy. it makes me want to know him more.

"hi! i'm miya atsumu! how are 'ya omi-kun?"

he only grumbled and glared at me. at first, i really wanted to smack him in the head, for being rude to his senpai but then i didn't give up.

"omi-kun! want me to toss to 'ya?"

"omi-omi! let's practice some more!"

"omi, come sit beside me"

"omi, let's eat together! c'mon!"

"omi!"

i tried many things and i'm glad he's opening up to me. i learned that he hates crowdy places, a germaphobe and suffering from mysophobia. i understand him and since than, i'm careful of my decisions and the way i act around him. he seems to warm up for me and i'm happy about it.

soon enough, we've been friends for the past 3 months. the things that i've done payed off. we're close as ever, as if we're a couple on the public's eyes.

i never thought of him as something more as a friend not until shoyo-kun pointed out.

"atsumu-san, have you've ever thought omi-san as someone more than a friend?

"eh? um i don't know? i never really thought about it..."

"oh..."

of course, shoyo-kun would've said that, considering he's with tobio-kun. but as he asked me that, i made my mind up and wouldn't look at him like that.

But that's what i thought.

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day by day, practice by practice, i could find myself staring at his gorgeous appearance. something about him made me feel tingly on my stomach, making me blush, and my heart pounding so fast that i'm scared he could hear it just from a mile away.

there, i broke my promise. a promise of not falling inlove to the one and only sakusa kiyoomi.

i couldn't help it but to fall for his little smiles, his retorts whenecer we argue just because of a petty arguements, his black curls, his moles on the side of his forehead, everything about him feels so perfect. too perfect.

not until the first time we've beaten the adlers, i unconciously hugged him, despite of the sweats. he froze from my touch until i realize what i have been doing. but was soon taken aback when he hugged me back, surprising me and the others.

i felt happy, that i'm the first one you've touched, you've hugged. i never felt so happy and never felt this way before. it was overwhelming.

asking myself, i may or may not have a chance with him.

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ever since then, we've been closer. hugging and head pats, we've been doing those. i could say he was touch-derived, hesitantly and shyly asking me for hugs and i'll be complying.

i've never been so happy because of this, it makes me want to kiss him. i've officially fell inlove with this man.

not until a certain event came through.

that night, we've been hanging around on the roof top of our dorms, after our practice. we're just staring at the moon above us, admiring the night sky and stars dazzling within it.

not until i broke the silence

"omi, what are we?"

"what?"

"i mean, we hugged, cuddled, and basically..."

i hesitated, a specific memory running in my head. that time when we kissed, once. it was when we're celebrating one of our co-member's birthday. we've been playing truth and dares and not until bokkun decided a dare for me

"tsum tsum, i dare you to kiss omi-kun!"

it's not easy as it sounds as i tried to not do it until a pair of lips crashed into mine, taking me aback.

it was omi, kissing me. the fact he moved first. i unconciously closed my eyes and kissed back, practically giving a show to our co-members.

after parting away, i became a flustered mess, smiling secretly. i though i really have a chance.

"what do you mean what are we?"

"i mean we've hugged and touching, y-you've also kissed me..."

"and that doesn't mean we're more than friends"

he spoke up, practically breaking me.

"w-what?"

"atsumu, you're a great friend and i really appreciated your efforts. not only that but you helped be to overcome my phobia and you helped me in many times. you're really a great friend and i like you like that"

every words that he said, it breaks me. i'm so stupid, for me to assume he likes me back.

i smiled bitterly and watched how the dark clouds of the night, covering the moon light.

"yeah, friends"

i let out the tears that where being held back, flowing as it lits up just like how the stars where. he just looked at me, i can see how his eyes felt sorry, as if it was all pity. i chuckled bitterly, wiping my tears harshly as i stood up.

"i guess see you later, sakusa"

walking out, i bursted again into tears. clutching my chest and wanting to take the pain out. it hurts. so bad

and that's how i ended up.

my life sucks and so does this story.

my love life sucks but i wouldn't go and be an immature person and just leave out of his love.

i still love him, and i'll forever will be.

but i guess in another life, we couls be happy

in another life, i can be his and he can be mine

in another life, i'll be his man

in another life...

but for now...

in this life, we're just friends.

nothing more, nothing less

just friends.

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Day 6: Friends (Completed)