The Missing Soul

Is This The End?

        My grandmother died a long time ago. Now I'm just an old man, alone. I have no kids, no wife, no one. I knew where May lived, I knew about the children she had. 

        I checked on May every once in a while, just to make sure she was doing ok. She never seen me. All the times I drove by her house or seen her picking her children up from the bus stop, never once did she notice me. 

        I wasn't mad at May. I could never be mad at her. I made a promise to her a long time ago and I'm keeping it. After May and I spilt up, I did get hit on a lot. I never dated and I didn't have sex with any of those woman. None of them were May. None of those woman were special. 

        I prayed every morning and night, that one day I could live the life I always wanted to live with May. That was a part of my daily routine, along with coffee and television. That's all my life is now, I'm nothing without May. Pray, eat, drink, watch tv, and sleep. 

        It was night time and I was watching a Saturday Night Monster Movie Special with Svengoolie on Metv. I got the strangest feeling of panic. I immeidatly jumped up and was about to open the front door, then  I stopped. 

        What the hell am I doing?

        I haven't got a feeling like this, except a while ago with..... May.

        Something was wrong, something didn't feel right. It had something to do with May. I can feel it... It's the same feeling I always felt when I lost May. 

        Was I just going to leave right now? At night? May lived a couple of hours away from me. 

        I finally gave up. I didn't care anymore. I ran as fast as I could to my car.  Man, I can feel myself getting old. 

        I didn't stop at all. Except once for gas. Other than that I couldn't stop thinking of May. I was going to feel really stupid if I got there and she was perfectly fine. At this time of day, she was probably sleeping. 

        After hours of driving, I finally made it to Paul and May's home. I was horrified when I seen a body on a strecher being transported to an ambulance. I hopped out of my car and ran out the lawn. It was weird, I have never been this close to their house.

        A man in a long, blue bathrobe and blue slippers stepped onto the porch. It was Paul. He aged a lot, but I'm pretty sure he thought the same of me. 

        "Leland.... We meet again."

        "Paul, I know you love May. But, I do too. Please tell me, is she ok?" 

        I examined Paul's face when he looked down at the ground. His eyes were red along with his face.... Like he just got done crying. 

        "Paul?" I said a little louder. 

        "I have to go to the hospital with my wife. You're more than welcome to follow behind me. Just remember, you're being invited as a friend." 

        May still looked beautiful. Her hair was still very long and brown, with speckles of gray. Her laugh lines were deep, still she was breathtaking and she always would be. 

        Paul had returned into the room. The doctor had called on him to talk to him, but Paul's face didn't look like he got happy news. 

        "The doctor says he can't explain it. She's very sick and in a coma. No one can figure out the cause..... She isn't going to make it." Tears came spilling out of Paul's eyes as he spoke. 

        Paul and I sat in silence, staring at May. She is going to die. If there's no explaination, it's just God's will. Soon Paul and I will be next. Another life will be given to us, but right now I'm afraid. Afraid of falling for May again and not being able to have her. 

        A light was shimmering off of something on May's neck. Could it be?

        And it was; the locket I had given her years ago and she still had it. She was wearing it right now after all these years. 

        And just seeing the locket on May's neck, filled Leland's heart with hope. 

        Someday, he thought, we'll be together.