Why Do I? (GirlxGirl)

Chapter 8: Bubblegum

Cadence's POV

I went home with my face red as a tomato. 'Holding hands?! Really?' Her hand felt so soft on mine and it was like our hands were crafted for each other.

No, Cadence what are you thinking?'

I pushed the thought at the back of my mind and opened the door. I was greeted by my mother who had a smile on her face but it disappeared when she saw how I was blushing so hard.

My mother looked at me with a weird face and said, "Why is your face red?" She lifted my chin using her index finger and examined my face.

"I was just um-" I couldn't find the words because I was so flustered and remembering her hands intertwined with mine wasn't helping and it only made it worse.

"Did you go on a date? Oh my God, with who?" Then she bombarded me with a lot of questions I couldn't answer.

'Was it a date though? Of course, it wasn't.'

"No, mom I didn't. Maybe it's just cold outside," I replied trying to act all calm and composed but she could see right through me. She was about to say something but I cut her off. "Mother, I promise you. It was not a date and I am still not planning on dating anyone yet either." Then I kissed her cheek and told her goodnight, not letting her say anything then I hurried into my room.

After I changed my clothes into comfortable ones, I just laid on my back and let the thoughts flow. The thought of dating? Someone? Oh no. It's not like I didn't want to, I just wasn't ready for another relationship. I'm scared. I don't want my heart to get broken again. I just can't.

When Samuel asked me out earlier, my system wasn't functioning. I also didn't want to hurt him because clearly, I didn't want to go out with him. But, I also want to try- What would happen? Should I tell him yes or no? I mean I could just reject him. I can't see myself going out with Samuel though but what if we would work out?

'This is so frustrating!'

I turned to my right and thought of Allison. Suddenly, I realized something. I realized lately that I was attracted to her.

I love everything about her, her nose, her green eyes, and her lips. 'No, shit' She was that attractive even if she doesn't wear make-up. The way her eyes light up whenever she talks about things she's passionate about was adorable. I can see now why so many people are after her. She was perfect, smart, and literally a Goddess. She was also friendly and approachable but sometimes she's not when she's pissed.

'Is she dating someone at the moment?'

The thought slightly worried me but I don't know why. Maybe it's because I just wanted her to myself. I wanted her company and I really like it when she's around. But what if she's just like her?

I returned to the thought of Samuel asking me out. Should I give him a chance? He seems like a nice guy. Yes, I should give him a chance and maybe I'll get over my ex... but won't it seem like I'm just using him?

'Oh no, that would be bad and his best friend would get mad at me. Ugh, this is getting-'

I snapped back in reality when mom knocked on my door and asked.

"Cadence? Are you asleep, honey?" I sat up and calmed myself down before answering, "Some kid is at the door looking for you."

"At this hour?" I blinked twice, wondering who could be looking for me. I fixed my hair before going downstairs and opened the door only to see Samuel holding a bouquet of flowers. "What are you doing here?" I don't know if I should be mad or happy about this. 'Did he follow us here?'