Why Do I? (GirlxGirl)

Chapter 16: Sandwiches

Allison's POV

"It's impossible because I wouldn't date you. You're not my type."

Liar.

I looked up, but I couldn't look into her eyes. I didn't know why I lied. I did want to date her. I badly wanted her to choose me. I don't even know if I should believe what she had just said about her sexuality. Maybe she was just playing tricks with me.

She nodded and smiled, "Good, 'cause I wouldn't date you either."

Right.

I tried to smile back, but it was a lot faker than a plastic cockroach, "Yeah, exactly. That's one of the reasons why 'you and I' is never going to happen."

For the first time in my whole existence, I felt so insecure. Is there a reason why she wouldn't date me? Is it because of my image in school? I never questioned my looks or my whole self, not until today. Am I even enough for someone? I was the one to initiate the breakups first in my past relationships, but what if I didn't? Would they have last long? Would I be good enough for them?

Yeah, right. Would anyone date an asshole like you? 

Everything is never as it seems.

"What are you two talking about?" Audrey looked at us from the other side of the table.

"Oh, nothing," I shook my head. "Just some stuff about school."

"Okay, then," she eyed me curiously, but then went back to talking with the others.

After that, I kept quiet and finished my food. We all decided to go home since it was almost getting dark. Lucas's mom picked him up earlier so he wasn't here anymore. Everyone stood up one by one, and I picked up my frappe and noticed something was written on it.

It was an email address.

I also noticed that Cadence stood behind me.

"What's that?" Cadence asked.

"I don't know," I shrugged, "It's some kind of email or something."

"Must be an email of this cafe," She replied.

I'm pretty sure this isn't an email of this cafe. I'm going to look it up later.

I pulled out my phone from my pocket and saved the email in my notes. As we were about to walk out, I saw someone familiar standing outside the door of the cafe.

By then, I just wanted to walk towards him and spill some fresh hot chocolate on his face. I was pissed.

"Is that-?" Caleb said.

"Unfortunately, yes," As much as I didn't want to confirm it, I just sighed. "What is he even doing here?" I whispered. 

Caleb rolled his eyes and whispered, "Whatever it is, I don't like him."

I laughed bitterly as I watch Cadence approached Samuel with a smile and hugged. I started to take the lead and my sister and Caleb decided to walk beside me. The others were talking about something else, while Cadence and Samuel were in the back talking and acting so in love. 

Well, fuck them.

I was surprised why I'm even mad. Is this jealousy? Well, if it is then shit. I shouldn't be.