I am a very, very, shy and timid person. Like, you don't even know.
And it really angers me when at school, I get made fun of for it. Like, the fuck?
So, I was born this way. I get nervous meeting and talking to new people. I'm very anti-social, whenever people invite me to parties or to hang out at the mall, they usually get turned down. I get so nervous, seriously.
I really wish I wasn't this shy. I wish I would have the courage to meet new people without getting all scared and nervous. I wish I was more outgoing, like I am here, on the internet.
When I show how nervous I am when I get called to do something in class, people look at me funny. It's so damn annoying.
There was this one time where this girl was like, "My god you're so shy and quiet and you have no pride."
I said, "At least I'm not a loud rowdy bitch like you."
It really irritates me and it makes me feel like shit. I try to be more outgoing and less shy, but I just can't.
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Sorry for not updating any real rants lately. But thanks to those of you who are actually still reading this book.
I love you all.
~IA
