Pick and Choose

Rumors

"Cami, you don't know how long I've been waiting to tell you this." Louis says as he's pacing my dorm room. It was just us two and we just got back early after dinner.

"Louis just tell me what's the big deal?" I ask.

"It's just that this will ruin everything, it will ruin me and Cedric, me and you, just... everything." He says .

"Then leave if your not gonna say it." I say in a frustrated tone. He stopped and looked at me. "Go on leave." I yelled.

He walked over to me aggressively, I scooted back on my bed and sat up straighter than before. He grabbed my throat and rushed his lips onto mine. I sat there shocked but found myself quickly kissing him back. A short kiss but passionate.

He pulled back and looked at me. "God I'm in love with you Camila." He whispers.

My eyes flushed open. It was a dream. I just had a dream Louis was in love with me. And I loved him back.

I do love him back.

No no I can't he's Cedrics best friend. He practically lives with us. For goodness sakes he's basically my own brother.

But he's not. We have no blood relation. I've lived with him my whole life so of course I have special feelings towards him and only him. As much as I try to put them aside I do and I can't deny it. No one knows besides me. And no one will ever know.

It was only 4 am and pitch dark in our room other than Lulus dim night light in the corner. I laid back down and tried to go back to sleep. Rolling on every side, after an hour I realized I couldn't sleep.  I quietly got out of bed trying not to wake up Piper and Lulu and put leggings on with an oversized hoodie. Throwing my hair in a bun and brushing my teeth. I grabbed my book off my desk and left the room.

Not sure what I was going to do considering breakfast starts in 3 hours. I walked down the halls and entered the common room.  The fire was out but it still had the warm home feeling it always has. Walking out of the common room I made my way to the great lawn. The great lawn was beautiful in the early mornings. Me, Piper, and Lulu went one morning because we pulled an all nighter.

As I approached the lawn the sun was just shining on the grass. Causing the condensation on the grass to drop down and take away some of the wetness.  I walked over to the tree in a corner and sat against it opening my book.

After reading for what felt like a hour I looked up and noticed some kids walking around. I got up and headed back to the common room avoiding any contact with anyone. I entered the common room and saw Louis and James walking down the stairs together. I tried to act like I didn't see them and went straight towards the girls stairs. They seemed to be in a conversation of their own and luckily for me they didn't say anything. Thankfully I was soon at my door out of their sight.

I opened the door and was greeted with Piper walking out of the bathroom and Lulu standing in her skirt and a bra on. "There you are we thought you already went down without us." Lulu says putting her shirt on.

"Sorry I woke up early and went to read on the lawn." I said setting my book down and starting to get changed. We all eventually got changed and quickly sped down to the hall since we were already late. As we entered I noticed Cedric, Louis, and James sitting with their friends so us three decided to take the last open seats on the end. Breakfast went by fast and we all parted ways to go to our classes.

First I had transfiguration. I only really knew Blaise in this class but he sit all the way across the room so we never talked here. Next to me was Harry, we were friends but we were never really close. Today was silent note taking.