Autophobia - (Vkook)

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(A/N: keep in mind that I don't fix my spelling or grammar errors)

18+ warning! If you are sensitive to topics surrounding self-destructiveness (that being more than you've already read through this story) read this chapter with caution. 

Third person's pov

"S-some..where over the... rainbow, way up h-high. There's a land that I... h-heard of... once in a lulla- lullaby." Taehyung whispered for himself as he wandered down the streets. He was surrounded by darkness and he felt as though he was slowly sinking down through the ground. His face was stained with tears and his knees trembled as his weak soul tried to hold on to what was left of him. It didn't take long until he fell down on the hard surface, knees first, head following as his cold skin became even colder. 

Rain started pouring, the Earth got soaked. A small boy on the ground, losing his hope. 

The wasted boy shivered as his clothes slowly but surely soaked up all the ground's surrounding water. This was it, he thought, it is over. He tried falling asleep, to escape. He relaxed his body and excepted the defeat.

"Don't lose your hope... it's not over yet, the story isn't over. Do you hear me Taehyung-ah? Do you remember me? Your friend. I've always been here for you so don't make me leave. Through thick and cold, you know? Remember the day I found you? You were stranded on the streets of Seoul all alone, crying, crying and crying. Remember that? Remember when you met me?  You were amazed that both of us wore the same kind of jacket, came from the same town and synced our sentence when talking. I helped you find a place to stay and I have showered you with love since that day. I-... I might not have been there, for real... but we grew together, I am you, you are me. Don't end it. Just... Wake. Up."

"Hey... Tae. We are here for you okay? He is right, the story is not over yet. And when you wake, you will have us by your side. Nothing will ever hurt you again."

Taehyung's pov

My eyes struck open. I breathed in quickly and put myself back on my feet. Only now did I notice the vage light forcing its way to me. Seems like I fell asleep. God damn it why is my body feeling like fucking shit? Wait. Where the hell am I?! I looked around and it didn't take me long until I realized it actually had happened.  Fucking hell... why am I like this? Of course it's all real... 

Even though I could only think negatively I knew it wouldn't last for much longer. I have been giving life so many opportunities to change and how the fuck am I supposed to try when no one is there to give me a boost. Ridiculous, fucking ridiculous. This mindset made me almost feel content, satisfied with my way of viewing life. I tried to look at my surrounding, "proud" of who I'd become, but all I could see was blurriness, unreal things moving, colors of the rainbow spreading across the sky. Am I really awake? Did I take drugs? WHAT THE FUCK IS UP RIGHT NOW.

"Agghhh", I gasped. My h-head... My heart started to beat faster as I swung my head forth and back in tremendous pain. My eyes.. I can't see! I started running, as fast as I could. I needed to get home, now! As I ran I could here how the water puddles beneath my feet slowly but surely lost its sound. The road in front of me became even blurrier and in a matter of seconds.. I was sure the ground under me was quicksand. For a split second I could see a tinier version of myself getting swung back in my mind and when I fell face flat down, I couldn't sense the pain. 

"Hello..? Can you hear me?"

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