Autophobia - (Vkook)

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(A/N: keep in mind that I don't fix my spelling or grammar errors)

Third person's pov

"M-mom can I tell you s-something?", Taehyung stuttered. He looked at his mom who was cooking dinner beside him. "Yeah sure sweetie what is it?", she looked with a warm smile playing on her lips at her son who was slightly shorter than her. "Okay... so", Taehyung breathed in a last time feeling how the smell of bulgogi (korean bbq) filled his nostrils. "I think I... I think I like boys". Silence... he saw how his moms smile slowly faded until it reached a serious face, a face she would only give him if he did something really bad. She chuckled slightly looking a little bit unsure about what to say next. Her eyebrows furrowed a little.

"Taehyung... it's not funny joking about those things", she tried continuing prepping the last vegetables. Her words were few but her eyes told another story and it gave Taehyung a bad feeling in his stomach, almost like knifes were stabbing him on and on.

"I-I'm not joking... it's just this boy in class that I find pretty cu-"

"SHUT UP! YOU MUST BE KIDDING RIGHT??", she threw the knife down on the ground behind her furiously. "THAT'S NOT RIGHT!! THAT'S SICK, AN ILLNESS!!", Taehyung stumbled backwards catching himself up after the harsh respond.

"B-but Mrs. Park s-said you can like whoever you w-"

"WELL THEN MRS. PARK IS SICK TOO TO THINK SOMETHING SO IRRATIONAL!!"

"I-I'm sorry", Taehyung dried his wet eyes before running away with quick steps to his room.

"DON'T EVER THINK ABOUT BEING GAY AGAIN OR ELSE YOU'RE MOVING OUT!!!"

"JIMIN!!!! WHERE ARE YOU?! SAVE ME!!", Taehyung screamed out hiccupping a little while crying out loudly. Someone?

Jungkook..?

The next second Jimin was coming running to Taehyung's room almost crashing down the door on his way. He grabbed Taehyung's shoulders and pulled him into his embrace and started drawing circles on his back to calm the crying boy down. "It's okay, it's okay", he whispered a few times until the other one breathed in a normal pace again.

"Did you dream about it again?", Jimin asked still hugging Taehyung tightly. He breathed out a shaky breath before he opened his mouth to speak. "P-please don't leave me alone", his voice cracked. "I-I... I just don't want to die alone", he cried out burying his face in Jimin's shoulder.

"I will never leave you behind Taehyung, do you hear me?", Jimin expressed with a serious voice which he got a light nod to as an answer. They peacefully sat like that for awhile...

"Okay lets sleep then, we need to wake up for school", Jimin said calmly and lied down Taehyung before lying down himself beside him.

"Goodnight Jimin.."

"Goodnight Tae"

Jungkook's pov

I looked around a few times searching for a certain person I had been wanting to talk with since yesterday. And no, I was not suppost to spill my emotions over this boy but instead try to explain how I felt for him in a non creepy way, which was highly not possible but anyways!

After walking around in circles for awhile I finally spotted him walking with Jimin to what seemed to be their first class? As I was about to face them my attention slowly got to their hands who seemed to be sticked together... almost like glue. I stopped in my steps feeling how my heart dropped a little. Are they dat- no. Jimin would've told me. I mentally slapped myself and looked up again only to see that they were gone. Well great Jungkook... I let out a quiet grunt before slowly pacing to my class with my head hanging low.

(Time skip, cafeteria)

We all gathered around our usual table joking a little about how Hoseok had yelled out 'Sugar gay' rather loud when the teacher had tried to explain why he was late for their first class this morning. They had told the explaination was; "I was having a good time with Mr. Young", when he actually had meant to say 'having a good time talking'. But anyways!

We all laughed loudly which lead me to look at Taehyung's reaction who was just staring at something infront of him rather distracted which was very unusual of him. Now when he was friends with everyone he usually was the one who started and followed conversations the most. His behavior made me feel guilty somehow and really sad at the same time. It was almost like looking at a dead body...

It didn't last long until Taehyung caught me staring which probably was the most scaring shit I've seen in my entire life. His eyes was reflecting something bad in them and the darkness who was hinting hit me straight in my chest as our eyes still were connected. I felt the feeling that he was really pissed at me or something.

I opened my mouth to say something but nothing came out. It felt like time slowed down and my ability to move disappeared. I swallowed hardly still with my eyes fixed on the other beautiful person almost across the table.

"What do you want?", Taehyung then asked sternly which lead to an uncomfortable silence around the table. My heart beated faster and faster. The tickling weird feeling started building up in my stomach again for the nth time now. At the same time I couldn't distract myself from how my body was shaking just by the fact of how scared I was.

"Jeon, can you speak today please", he said with a monotonious voice.

"Ehm..." I gulped quickly before trying to figure out what I actually wanted to say. "C-can we talk, p-please? Alone..?". Fuck why am I stuttering so badly..

"Sure dude, lets go", he said somehow confidently before leaving the cafeteria behind him. I quickly followed his steps walking a meter or so behind him even more afriad of what was coming...

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