Autophobia - (Vkook)

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(A/N: keep in mind that I don't fix my spelling or grammar errors)

Taehyung's pov

I woke up with my heart in my throat and a cold sweat. I tried to slow down my breathing, trying to remember why I in the first place was so panicked. Then I remembered...

The night before I really had a hard time falling asleep. I was so used to Jimin cuddeling me to sleep that I had forgotten how it felt like to fall asleep on my own. After almost having a panic attack twice I remembered how the darkness finally surrounded me and led me to sleep with tears in my eyes. And so my dream began.

It was similiar to the dreams I had during my coma. But this time, I knew who it was who told me he would help me. Jungkook. He held my hands tightly in the dream and bent forward close to my face. My stomach started twisting and I felt how salivia started forming in my mouth. The nervous feeling was weird, and I still can't understand why I felt it. When his face only was an inch away from mine he slowly moved to my ear and whispered like a thousand demons left his body: You'll never be loved... his voice echoed inside of my head. The words punched my brain again and again, until I woke up. Crying.

His smile pictured in my head. How it went from being warm, soft and bunny looking to looking like he would kill me if he needed or even worse wanted.

I checked the time on the clock beside me. 07:39 great I thought realizing Jimin and the others would pick me up in just an hour or so. I looked out through the window beside me at a playground just a pair of meters from the hospital. If I only could be happy like I used to.. all of this wouldn't truly have happened if I never told them about... my sexuality...

(Time jump, 1 hour)

I had just changed clothes and eaten my breakfast when they finally came picking me up. At first I thought all of them would come but got releaved when only Seokjin, Jimin and Jungkook came. But trust me, I don't have anything against the others but almost the opposite now that we actually had a good time talking with eachother yesterday. It seemed like they had missed me weirdly enough which made me a tiny bit embarrassed about how I always treated them.

"You ready to go Tae?", Jimin said smiling at me making his eyes shine brightly.

"Yes I am", I said showing off my infamous box smile towards him.

We left the hospital behind us and jumped in the car before driving away. Jin was driving and me and Jungkook sat in the back together with Jimin in the front seat. The ride was quiet but still so comfortable, something I really adored and probably was the only thing I adored with the silence sometimes.

I looked out through the window pressing my face against it like a child following every passing by car with me eyes on the other side of the road. I felt so excited to finally be free from the coma, free from the hospital, free from everything! I quietly giggled for myself as I traced raindrops on the car window caused by the terrible weather outside, but still that didn't affect me being happy.

Third person's pov

Jungkook looked at Taehyung with sparkling eyes. He couldn't stop smiling for himself when he saw how cute Taehyung actually was. Just like Jimin and Seokjin had described him. Jungkook caught himself staring when he noticed how his cheeks slightly started hurting because of much he had smiled. It was a long time ago he had smiled so badly because of someone just existing.

As Taehyung played for himself he noticed Jungkook looking at him in the reflection of the window. He confused turned around his head and looked at the dumbfounded person beside him who almost seemed to have peed himself by surprise. Taehyung smiled at Jungkook a little which couldn't do anything but let Jungkook's cheeks turn pink and hot right away. He covered his face with his sleeves and quickly looked away which made Taehyung let out a small chuckle.

And IF you remember, it was all silent in the car so of course our dear Jimin both heard and saw this little kdrama while having a playful smirk on his lips. Even though he looked a little bit, I don't know how to describe it but sad.

After minutes of Taehyung playing for himself, Jungkook blushing and Seokjin and Jimin ranting about the very fucked up political system (it's just a joke, don't take it seriously), they finally pulled up at Jin's work, aka the café with the best cakes ever.

" You should feel honored that I actually left my work like 1 hour after my shift started today only to give you three a ride because you obviously don't know what a bus is!!!", Jin spat out ironically angry.

"Love you too hyung", Jimin said ironically too before climbing out of the car with a fake pokerface which wasn't too hard to miss.

"Seriously you guys!!", Jin turned around to Taehyung and Jungkook. They both made finger hearts before laughing their asses off getting out of the car.

"VERY funny", Seokjin finally gave up following them before closing the door and locking the car...

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My dudes I'm here again! And yes, I'm alive!
Okay so for the ones who wondered I've been having a hard time writing lately. It's not bc I in anyway want to stop writing, that's really not it. Idk, I just haven't been in the mood but I'm sure I'll be posting soon again now that it's summer and I don't have school... I've been reading alot of fanfics and I realized that I enjoy reading stories with more chapters and less text (or less words) in them so I tried to make this one a little bit shorter, so yeah. I don't think anyone have been waiting for my update but I still want to thank everyone who's been sticking around!! It means so much to me!

So, thanks for 100 reads, like that's insane!! I am more than greatful for this!!I purple you so so much!💜💜💜