Autophobia - (Vkook)

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(A/N: keep in mind that I don't fix my spelling or grammar errors)

Taehyung's pov

What the fuck.. wHaT ThE fUcK.. WHAT THE FUCK... I thought looking at the boy next to me. I quickly but carefully released my grip from the younger's small waist while turning around to instead face the wall on the other side. What was I even thinking when hugging him in the first place??

My heart felt like exploding. It felt like it was beating faster than the speed of whatever fast car driving. I felt how my forehead was wet and how warm my body was. It was like I was sitting at the very top in a warm sauna probably over a 100 degrees C. The warmth flushed through my whole body again and again. I threw myself up from the bed and kicked away the burning hot blanket off of me.

I turned around again to see Jungkook still sleeping peacefully beside me while letting out small snores. His mouth was slightly open and his hair was ruffled covering his closed chocolate eyes. I gulped at the thought of me hugging him earlier. The thought of the two of us hugging eachother here in my small bed in the darkness. My cheeks turned bright red again and a fuzzy warm feeling in my tummy started forming. I licked my lips over and over before I lied down again with the biggest distance possible between us.

As I was trying to close my eyes I suddenly heard how Jungkook's light snores stopped. I sneakly looked at him and saw how his eyes opened up meeting my half opened ones. He smiled at me giving me the fuzzy feeling again before he shuffled closer to me.

"Cuddle me"

My eyes shoot wide. I didn't know what to say. I knew I needed cuddles more than him if I didn't want to stay awake the whole night.

I looked at his pouty lips when I didn't answer him. His lips were so plump and pretty it felt like I could look at them forever. Nope not today bitch. He noticed my long stares which turned his pouty lips into a smirk. I looked at his eyes who were saying the same thing leading me to hold my face as it was burning up even more.

I felt his intense stares at me through my hands. Like they were burning wholes through them. He removed my hands and looked at me now with innocent bunny looking eyes. T-the dream... it's happening... I shoot my eyes closed and tried turning away from him but I was already too close to the wall.

"What's wrong?", he asked me holding my thin wrist.

"This is just a dream... it's just a dream", I said still not looking at him.

"What are you talking about? I'm here for you don't worry"

"This is just like the dream I had", I said opening my eyes. "Soon enough you'll make me feel useless... just like I am". I didn't know it but me eyes were already leaving hot liquid on my still burning cheeks.

"Taehyung it's okay", he pulled me closer and hugged me tightly. "I promise you I will never hurt you, ever", he wispered rubbing my back with his hand. I pulled my arms around him and pressed my head against his chest letting all of me wrecked annoying feelings out.

2 days later

Third person's pov

"Why Taehyung?"

"I just don't wanna talk about it, nothing happened!", Taehyung said half flustered.

"Oh come on, you've been acting so different around Jungkoo-"

"Sshh, keep quiet!!", Taehyung put his hands over Jimin's mouth as he saw Jungkook entering the classroom. "I don't want him to hear"

Jimin pulled away Taehyung's hands looking at him with a small smile on his lips. "I knew something was up. I'm your best friend, you can trust me", he looked at him with puppy eyes this time and pouted slightly.

Taehyung had been acting strange since sunday morning and not like he was distant in any way but everytime when Jungkook came around he would blush and pretend he wasn't there. Jimin had noticed his behavior but didn't get the chance to ask him. Maybe because everytime he tried Taehyung would run away flustered since Jungkook hung out with him.

"Mm okay Jimin I'll tell you. So that ni-", he suddenly stopped.

"Taehyung?", Jimin saw how his best friends face turned from a smile to a sad pokerface and looked at the direction Taehyung was looking at. Right there in the very front at Jungkook's seat he and a girl were kissing. She had her hands snaked around his neck and sat on his lap like it was her property. Jimin quickly looked away only to notice Taehyung had placed his head on the bench and protected it with his arms around it.

Oh, I think I get it now...

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Hi there, so this chapter's really weird and a little bit all over the place in my opinion but hopefully it's okay. It took awhile for me to give an update since I worked 3 weeks and was really tired. But finally it's out.

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